I must still be learning humility

Making someone choose is sometimes the only way. Sadly it has to be down to a picking wire but it is what should be. I choose but I can't keep looking away.

So my humility must be lacking if I am heartless, crazy or demented. But did you know I overlook too much stuff.

I didn't trust but I gave benefit of doubt to all people and I was shocked. Just appalled. Turn around only to break in a furious sweat, walking away before I destroy.

It is not my place. I just give up. Find that the layers I had given were just too thin for you to choose me.

I am sorry but I would have figured I deserved. But who was I kidding. Obviously only myself.

Alas I must trace an invisible wall and hope that it deserves a chance. Yet do I really want to be the choice now.  Now after I have seen so much. Too much that damages.

It's not fair but I can deal. I was temporary.  Crazy wind that filled space. Yeah I understand now.

Well I was a fool. And I was just thinking how to move on. Yet I wasn't ready yet.

Still I feel. I hurt. I have died. Yet I still breathe. Why?  Another lesson. Yes. I get it.

Here I hold my head up with dignity and Pray you never seen me cry. I can't afford you seeing my weakness EVER AGAIN