Lost in the gap

So sick from being lost in the gap. Seeing things I never want to recall and getting upset for those who get caught up in a twisted tangle.

Alas what can you do but hold your head up and walk away. You taught me that recently.  I have learned I am just a game.

Now I have called quits and am just walking away. Shutting you out. Sorry but you chose once and for all. I am cleaned shut. I can't keep moving forward.

My first need is to have but sharing with other, no. Call me crazy. Like you do so many others. Just realized I can never be good enough.

So I have to learn to get away. We are temporary acquaintances now. I have finally cried my last tears for you. And am just tired.

Walking away so you can play your games. I can't do it anymore. So you have won. I am tired dear friend of the sights seen and unseen. Tired of the never trusting your words.

I cannot find the leap of faith anymore. Not with the bridge in flames. The tapestry unraveling. I have learned.

I was A FOOL!

It is okay. I realize that now. And now as much as it hurts I am giving up. Turning away and looking a different direction.

Seek me out if you must but understand I won't understand you. I won't know you very well. I learned that I never knew you.

That was the plan right?

Anyhow.. I am done.