Distance of siblings, felt

                       The acknowledgement of distance in
siblings. The radiance of beauty and calmings. A draw
of a tiny line beginning to become stronger, bolder.

                       Oh how the mind plays tricks. A hoping of
tiredness is the ache of the soul as the spirit remains in
a form of sanity.

                       Yet what is sanity? What is the meanings
given? Who knows.

                        Here I sit well relaxed beginning the new
day with a racing heart and even toned breaths. The
kiss of being awakened one more day.

                       Life is so precious. That one eye opening
sigh to renew a list of goal for a new morning.

                      I sigh as the morning light is still hidden
in the darkness. Oh I giggle as I open the brand new
gift I and many siblings received in the evening hours
yesterday.

                   The start of examining the daily Scriptural
text and inquiring of how I so may understand the
world and within. The hidden ones who claim to be
true but are so false, apostates. Indeed something
for me to meditate over, how to be more alert.

                  Oh yes this day, through the early morning
light, I pray. Hoping this day will bring a bit more joy
to the already radiant spirit. I hope somewhere along
the way I am to be less shy among family.

                  Still I see so much tension, separation
between me and others. Granted I am gaining ground,
closer and closer I am drawn towards my Father, Jehovah.
So why the emotions of disappointment? Why the feeling
of disassociation?

                 Oh the faults I draw brightly. Yes mine.
Holding the floodlight upon each and every one of them.
Seeking the cracks to open wider. Why am I doing that?
Why be cruel to myself?

                Silent I hope for a hug but time, Jehovah will
open the opportunities. Jehovah knows what I need,
he will see to my daily sustenance.

                 So the distance of siblings can be drawn
closed but I tire so much initiating new conversations
all the time. This day is upon you, my dear friend.
Today you start the new tracks.

                Yes I invite you to start a new level of inquiries.
Perhaps I will begin with a renewed sense of joy and
happiness.

                 Do you think you can do that my dear
friend? Start the new conversations with me?