Commons of a kind reminder

         Indeed the commons of one. Indeed I gather
that. Yet there is no need to press it into my face.
This is how I remember family is imperfect. That draws
can be chosen to harm.

       Yes I see. No need to remind. I know what I am.
Friend, sibling and a tempermental woman. Indeed in
that order. Sometimes I scream inside myself. Hold
back various levels to remain the utmost calm, too
cold to some. A barrier I have taken years to create.

     Unloaded for a while. More to tear back. One day
in depths of weakness I am stronger. Kid you not in
the understanding of Jehovah's words.

      So perhaps the kindness in the reminder of one
common bond presses the nerve. Alas I understand
through Jehovah the weights.

     Please understand me though, as though you never
have, through the eyes, conscience of an innocent.
Perhaps then the levels of containment will be given.
Then in that instance you will begin to comprehend just
how reserved I am.

   Still yes the screams echo as the walking progresses
to a sprint. Just how I am. Emotional Mary. The changes
proved that.

   Pursuit of joy sits dancing inside my spirit. Cautiously
I advance into a new storm. Well prepared and a bit
distant.

   So shh if you think I am angry at you. Shh if you
feel odd. Shh if you need to comfort. Shh. Okay? I am
well. I am sure that I knew, still am appreciating all
that was given. Unfortunately the view was 20/20
too late.

   Grateful the splatter of reality hinted so close. Ah
the waves plundered my soul and shook my spirit but
if you look the tree that I am still is standing.
Firming planted where I plan to set roots.

   So if you want, if you are willing you will comprehend
the emotional me as the growing a child needs in care
of her Father, Jehovah. So yes press your inspired by
God words into my spirit, deep into my mind. I will
grateful inhale all that can be encouraged.

  A patience I have acquired. Learning. Leaning.
Loving always. All falls in place when years eliminate
themselves.

  Tried. Tested. Truth. Taken.
        Sought. Scaled. Scowled. Scolded. Stopped.
            Checked. Contained. Continued. Changed.

Echoes here yes. One more day for me to learn. To that
I am always willing.