Silenced

         Once again the heart races and I scream for it
to slow down. Yet no voice is being heard but tears and
gasps of air.

          Alas a breath just breaks and the steps are
painful. Still I press where I am supposed to. Entering
my sighs of hope.

         The necessary calming and still the heart beats
uncontrollably. Locking the knots deep inside my
throat and holds tight to the soul. The spirit tries,
tries so hard to see positive when all the mind echoes
is black.

        Striving so hard, I step back. Looking nowhere
but forward as the shivers hide me further into covers.

         Oh, how the face dries cracked. The words
fall short and the kindness seems syrupy. Ah just
back away.

         Curling inside a tight ball only to cry loudly.
Only heard as a whisper. My sound of loss trembles this
pale and I just walk away.

        Hoping. Praying. Nevermind the ache. I just
keep positive. I must. For good bye isn't what I want
to say or hear. So shh has to be where I am.

       Silenced.