Pushed, carried

      The screams of sweetness echo down the hallway.
Shh listen to the lullaby that soothes the soul, carries the
spirit to greater levels.

      The delights of siblings. The love of warmth and of grand
compassion. The wealth of being a part of one big family.
So many brothers and sisters.

      The goodness of time has improved the mind through
training. Not a form of torture involved but a loving
protective wall that builds, strengthens us.

      I am proud of the lengths I have traveled to be where
I am standing today. So please indulge me for a moment
as I dance happily around my room.

     No longer do I sear my mind closed to family. No longer
do I cling to crazy thoughts of yesterday. No longer do I
want to be reminded of the old skin.

     Oh how I shed those tears. Long, long days echoed before
me. So soft was the nudge of Jehovah's love. Opening my
mind, my heart to see what was there, what needed to be
healed.

     Now to hear my name in the darkness no longer scars
my memory. The steps do not seem sharp and painful. Nor
do the emotions beg for what isn't a part of me.

    More and more I become breathless over the simple
walks, the loving counsel and the pieces of friendships
woven intricately. All that used to hurt has scabbed and
grown over new skin. Layers renewed and levels of
astonishment encourage laughter where pain and jealousy
ruled.

    Oh how solid were the details stolen, hidden in plain sight.
Shh listen to the pulse beating. Holding clear to the drum
of Jehovah. Giving me all that I desired, needed and more.

    How could I have been so wrong? Oh Jehovah the tapestry
you have woven, building each new layer with bold, strong
yarn. Such love you opened before me and so much more
I give back.

     How could I have ever needed more? Yes letting go
of those painful memories, I shed billions of tears. Still now
those salty almond corners are filled with joy. Each moment
is one where I pushed away the old and regained the
Truth.

     Oh Jehovah I know now stepping away was the hardest
thing to prove to you and now I draw closer. Finding that
where desires are overtaken by need to serve you.

     I smile knowing all that I have pushed through, I have
gained the richness of life. The one wise choice to find my
Father, Jehovah, God. The best free willed decision I made
in decades.

     So here I stand with great strength and courage, with
love and kindness seeking out the one true God, Jehovah
to carry me when I am in need.

     Hi I say to my dear friend. Indeed our tapestry grows
stronger, longer and more vibrant with each passing second.
Jehovah indeed has a plan. Long standing.

     I look forward to seeing all the opportunities given, the
possibilities of great laughter and tons of love falling
upon us. Do you, dear friend?

      So yes never let go of me. Jehovah used you to save
me and me to save you. Who knows what else is in store for
our family, our intricately woven friendship. One day at a
time.

      Smiling I pray for you my friend, for my family and
for all those searching. I hope we find that the need is
opened by Jehovah.

     So I give to you a hope inside my dreams, the memories
of baby steps that grew strong. Oh here I give you my love,
my patience, my kindness and my courage so you too can
keep on giving in return.

     Share with others, perhaps even me, the levels you have
found within Jehovah's care.

      Now I give you a tender hug on the wind, good night my
dear friend. Sleep well and allow your dreams to love
my gift of friendship.