Never really know

           Funny how you can walk side by side people for
years and just never even know them. Oddly enough
I have seen it.

          So clear the morning was today. Dark, crisp
and surprisingly so welcoming. Just inhaling the air
was nice.

       Emotions of the day before came running through
my head. The small allowances of sleep via nightmares
was so refreshing. Yes I did say refreshing.

      Still the arguments and severe hating parts I
awoke from caused every minute of peaceful
sleep to be so precious.

      One can only hope whatever is hurting inside will
disappear as the day opens to brightness. Yes I can
hope. The morning light to just draw me outside in
grand wonder.

      The uncertainty of wanting any type of conversation
to be answered. The need of association is overwhelming.
Still how to gain it is unclear.

       Oh here I sit reading my daily text. Examining the
oddity of the right words in right places. Just so much
more in how I wrote of what was said just yesterday.

       Indeed the warmth of a loving kiss on my forehead.
Oh how comforting it is to see being solo isn't really
being alone. Jehovah is always listening, watching.

      So yes I had hopes but now certain ones are placed
in the back. Holding tightly, though, I have not forgotten
them.

      First step of clarity is remembering sometimes I have
to take the first leap. So here I am. Now if only there
was a kind response. Alas time will tell.

     Life must go on. So dear friend, if I still may
associate that name to you, will any words be said?