Clarity in stench

           Standing outside as the chill vibrates inside my
paleness. Softly the hint of the sun kisses a fresh glaze
upon my eyes. Then slowly begins to fade into the darkening
colors of dusk.

           Oh clarity of how idiotic I became. The clearness
of worry that began shackled upon my spirit and raged
high levels of stress upon my mind. It is no wonder
the head screamed in agony.

          All of it dwindles down to doubt of siblings. The
precautions I took to avoid a confrontation and still I
stepped right inside a pile of manure. Unclear how to
move on I wallowed in the murky stench long enough to
create dried layers.

          No wonder so many steered clear of my presence.
Who wants to be kind and loving to those who purposely
douse, bathe themselves in multiple levels of grinding
self pity, doubt in Jehovah? Who? No one of course.

         Still I tried hard to cover up the odor with
ignorance and explanation, reasoning.

         Instead of staying put I decided enough is
enough. I am offensive to even myself. So get up,
clean off and move forward with prayer to Jehovah.
Indeed my steps became easier and less degrading.

         One by one returned the views, the words. Oh
how sweet the air became and the confidence in Jehovah
soared once more.

         Simple as just the right words inside the Bible to
draw me to realize how grossly ignorant I had become.
Loosening the crusted doubt from my mind I am moving
positive once more.

                Thank you Jehovah.