Old poems stir peace

          Sitting here glancing over some poems I thought
were just memories in my mind. Oh how sad they are.
Two in paricular draw me closer to read, to recall the emotion
or lack thereof. Oh just to experience in a new light how
lost I was.

         So lost. Crawling in desperation for something to
cling to, anything. Then reminding myself how far I have
come. I noticed I don't need things to help me smile, to
be happy. I only feel the love and joy. Somehow, with Jehovah
I don't need anything else.

       So many times I screamed at myself for the lies,
the deception I hid just to hold onto simply nothing. Ah
how broken I became, severed from life and empty to the
love of Jehovah.

         Ah recalling the negativity of the shame I brought
to myself and to others just makes me rejoice even more
over the progressive changes I applied. In so many ways
I am not that person anymore. I thank Jehovah for how
he found me, groveling over a severe secret. I am so
grateful in the changes.

        I asked myself repeatedly to be at peace knowing that
I am that wondering one. Alas I could not make peace, nor
feel any calm in the midst of that storm. This is where
Jehovah threw me the answers that were really deeply
rooted inside me.

        Once I was torn by the way I lived, now I am
joyful and happy by the steps I have taken. Ah the roadways
and paths I chose from that first baby step, so much
has been forgiven and cleared.

      No longer is the bitterness driving the spirit onwards to
empty. My spirit is strengthened by the words Jehovah has
inspired. So much is noticed and so many have commented.

       All because Jehovah found me. ME!  The child wondering
lost, blinded in Satan's world.

       Still I read to remind myself, kindly and lovingly so,
that who I was can still hurt if I stop clinging to Jehovah.
So here is to the newer paths, the acquired family  and the
wave of friends I have gained.

     The smallest fraction of real family, they know who
they are, really have seen positive changes. Oh no longer
are there lies, hatred, jealousy of an empty shell of a
human. They know, they have seen.

       Thank you Jehovah for giving me a moment to
recall my progress. Thank you for giving me someone
to talk to, listen to and laugh with. Ah now I breathe.
Exhaling into the midmorning sky.

       Yes there is peace here. Listen my dear friend do
you feel the whispers of calm vibrating throughout your
spirit too?