Fool's comedian

    Uncertain where I am going
but I feel the wind waiting to carry
me away. To forget about my trickery,
Jealous mind. Ah how we form opinions
before we really know anything.

    Best never to guess nor ever wonder.
Ah a monster, she creeps into my mind.
To take me places. I scream not to go
again.

    Disappear. Fade right now. Today
is about me. Forget things you do
to tempt me. Even though the memories
taunt my soul. Images stained in
the membrane. Leaving the lasting
impressions.

   Ah please evaporate. Need to be
erased for just a day. Maybe tomorrow
I will be kind. Be righted in the
soul. No more streaking of sarcasm.
To not be bitter. Dare I beg of you not
to talk to me.

     
    To say never. Get out of my head. To
avoid my temptation. To open
the options to a diversion to ignore
hatred. To dissolve within the air, the
rain. Soaking up my wonder of negativity
washing away the possible worry I
create.

    Ha aren't I a comedian? Need to
open my world and see the laughter
spill out. How I lied to keep sane.
Delusional to maintain a positive
image of friendship when my emotions
are wearing thin.

   Want to scream and throw my rage
for something asisine. Over someone
who cares yet not enough. Ah I tear
my soul to pieces. For what? A glimpse
of time I stole. La.

   What an imagination I had. Reading
into a situation more than there is. Ah how
I create a new barrier. Will it be open
for a discussion when you and I speak
next. Probably closed and empty. Shaken
out and forgotten by wasted time.

    Ah what a fool I am today.