Words to say
Today I found myself in a loss of words. Wanting so badly to show someone something although, now, they are no longer a part of my world. Sadden by it but grateful that they are where they need to be. And as my heart crushed and my tears fell, I found joy in the memories made.
Then I began to watch a movie from a few years ago, "Palmeras en la nieve"or Palm trees in the snow. This reminded me of depth that be felt and experienced. Yet I cry in the moments that tear you and I smile in the moments of rapture.
Not in the sense of sensuality but that of exuberant joy. I only wanted to tell you one thing today, vocally, but a million in thought. Yet I remained quiet. Only adding a likeness here and there, then removing.
Now I just sit here trying to decide whether I start a journal of those thoughts that I need to ask you. And as I pray over it, I understand the answer already. Now as I find what I need to, I start the tumbling letters. I smile.
Today I only hope that one day I will get to express a depth to you. I don't know when nor if when I do, the words will mean anything. By then life will have brought differences for all. So I can only hope and pray.
That is the stage I am in now. Yes so much to really say and yet nothing can be said. Ah how patience is taught and kindness is given. One day a voice will be heard, if you are listening.
Then I began to watch a movie from a few years ago, "Palmeras en la nieve"or Palm trees in the snow. This reminded me of depth that be felt and experienced. Yet I cry in the moments that tear you and I smile in the moments of rapture.
Not in the sense of sensuality but that of exuberant joy. I only wanted to tell you one thing today, vocally, but a million in thought. Yet I remained quiet. Only adding a likeness here and there, then removing.
Now I just sit here trying to decide whether I start a journal of those thoughts that I need to ask you. And as I pray over it, I understand the answer already. Now as I find what I need to, I start the tumbling letters. I smile.
Today I only hope that one day I will get to express a depth to you. I don't know when nor if when I do, the words will mean anything. By then life will have brought differences for all. So I can only hope and pray.
That is the stage I am in now. Yes so much to really say and yet nothing can be said. Ah how patience is taught and kindness is given. One day a voice will be heard, if you are listening.
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