A bit lost but not confused
Contemplating all the thoughts that waver inside my mind. Quite a conquest in itself. I just unfold all that is deep inside my spirit and display it inside the most vibrant glass case. That way everyone can scrutinize and I can adjust what is supposed to be and what is lacking.
You see there is so much complication within me that the questions of life seem to be just laughter. These verses of undeniable comedy for all to seek their joys and kicks from. Oh by far none of it is meant to be a negative aspect of living life. Just the constant need of answers that I don't know what, who to confide in.
I suppose you could say I am confused. Yet by far I know I am not. I may be a bit lost but not confused. The thing is is, is that life and trust is always with Jehovah and with that understanding I am capable being okay with just laying down. Not necessarily to be a doormat but to let things pass over me. Forego the constant need to address everything that is laid at my feet. Although those things that are impending my growth, yes I place them before me. I open all the views so that I can adjust and reapply into my life.
You could say that I am incomplete without all the constant counseling. Always in need of references and guidance from those who are important to Jehovah. See that is where the mind wanders at night. Not confused just momentarily lost. It's there that the searching explodes into this amazing form of wisdom given by Jehovah. Whether it be by a video, by a talk or by just doing the research of a bible verse. See that is the spirit of Jehovah pressed inside of my core.
The best parts of my life that are totally unexplained. Yet they are visualized well within Jehovah's mind, his directions. So where do I fall in this grand scheme of things? Well I see myself as a grain of sand. Unknown to billions but still needed. Perhaps that is the best way to understand my place in Jehovah's memory.
However, currently I don't know where I am. Just lost for the moment, until Jehovah finds me favorable again. I hope someday.
And when the day does arrive, the continuing story of me, will be a bit more keen on knowing exactly what Jehovah expects of me. I look forward to the words from vessels / channels Jehovah uses. The guidance, counsel and protection that will be given as a privilege. That is the hope of re-entering.
You see there is so much complication within me that the questions of life seem to be just laughter. These verses of undeniable comedy for all to seek their joys and kicks from. Oh by far none of it is meant to be a negative aspect of living life. Just the constant need of answers that I don't know what, who to confide in.
I suppose you could say I am confused. Yet by far I know I am not. I may be a bit lost but not confused. The thing is is, is that life and trust is always with Jehovah and with that understanding I am capable being okay with just laying down. Not necessarily to be a doormat but to let things pass over me. Forego the constant need to address everything that is laid at my feet. Although those things that are impending my growth, yes I place them before me. I open all the views so that I can adjust and reapply into my life.
You could say that I am incomplete without all the constant counseling. Always in need of references and guidance from those who are important to Jehovah. See that is where the mind wanders at night. Not confused just momentarily lost. It's there that the searching explodes into this amazing form of wisdom given by Jehovah. Whether it be by a video, by a talk or by just doing the research of a bible verse. See that is the spirit of Jehovah pressed inside of my core.
The best parts of my life that are totally unexplained. Yet they are visualized well within Jehovah's mind, his directions. So where do I fall in this grand scheme of things? Well I see myself as a grain of sand. Unknown to billions but still needed. Perhaps that is the best way to understand my place in Jehovah's memory.
However, currently I don't know where I am. Just lost for the moment, until Jehovah finds me favorable again. I hope someday.
And when the day does arrive, the continuing story of me, will be a bit more keen on knowing exactly what Jehovah expects of me. I look forward to the words from vessels / channels Jehovah uses. The guidance, counsel and protection that will be given as a privilege. That is the hope of re-entering.
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