Objects
As I sit here looking over objects in my living room I say to myself, what else can I get rid of? There are so many "things" I have and still need to lose or give away because my move to Ohio needs to fit in a 5x5 ft container and the trunk of a car.
It is the excitement of coming full circle. Some times placing the blackest part of yourself into the light has to be the way you completely heal.
Sure no one fully understands the dark part of me. Only Jehovah. Things I have experience can be comparable but not really understood. I mean some can understand the experience but not the emotion nor the waves that came from it.
Because we each are an individual person. But how does sorting my things, cleaning out my past and opening my weakest points help show I am different? Well it doesn't to anyone but me. The fact that I am willing to go back to a place that stirs nightmares, I'd say it's through the strength of faith . I can't explain it any other way .
So stepping out of here with only what I have understood is important is the greatest accomplishment. And still there is too much I am taking.
As I was reminded today we came into this world with nothing and we shall go out the same way.
Yet, still, my mind thinks. Everyday I decrease. Every month is a little bit less. Soon the 5x5 ft container will hold artwork, clothes and a few odds and ends.
And as for going back home, I am stirred with emotions but I know I will be okay. I have my faith in Jehovah to help carry me through anything and everything.
Some times you have to do things that destroy you inside to find that complete peace. From darkness to light you draw yourself out . It's a real eye opener but so worth it in the end.
So I must come full circle. I have been so many places in my lifetime and now it's time to go home. This where you will find me.
And as I decrease those things of mine I am grateful for the memories.
Now just ridding of the excess. Soon weights will be gone . Joy.
It is the excitement of coming full circle. Some times placing the blackest part of yourself into the light has to be the way you completely heal.
Sure no one fully understands the dark part of me. Only Jehovah. Things I have experience can be comparable but not really understood. I mean some can understand the experience but not the emotion nor the waves that came from it.
Because we each are an individual person. But how does sorting my things, cleaning out my past and opening my weakest points help show I am different? Well it doesn't to anyone but me. The fact that I am willing to go back to a place that stirs nightmares, I'd say it's through the strength of faith . I can't explain it any other way .
So stepping out of here with only what I have understood is important is the greatest accomplishment. And still there is too much I am taking.
As I was reminded today we came into this world with nothing and we shall go out the same way.
Yet, still, my mind thinks. Everyday I decrease. Every month is a little bit less. Soon the 5x5 ft container will hold artwork, clothes and a few odds and ends.
And as for going back home, I am stirred with emotions but I know I will be okay. I have my faith in Jehovah to help carry me through anything and everything.
Some times you have to do things that destroy you inside to find that complete peace. From darkness to light you draw yourself out . It's a real eye opener but so worth it in the end.
So I must come full circle. I have been so many places in my lifetime and now it's time to go home. This where you will find me.
And as I decrease those things of mine I am grateful for the memories.
Now just ridding of the excess. Soon weights will be gone . Joy.
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