Sleepless
The nights that are sleepless to me are the most interesting foe the reason of how do I manage on so little energy. Even more so is when I have a long day of work the following day.
Now tell me how do you release stress. Normally a walk or exercise is my way to go. Yet I know I am on restrictions right now. That eats at me but I know it is all for the better good. Yet does that stop me from wanting to do those things, absolutely not.
Though training yourself to halt is one of the hardest things to do, but if successful you gain a greater reward of health all the way around.
So for these past four months I have done almost nothing. Gaining my exercise and walking from work. Sadly I do too much on most of those days and have to recoup for three or four. Though I don't say that to work. Nope. I push through.
Now my road is recovery in so many ways. I am hoping to maintain cancer free and adjust my thyroiditis the way it should be so I can get back to taking my walks, hikes.
Yet time. That is the key to healing as well as good peace, spiritual food and encouragement. So as I sit here on my bed, in four layers of clothes the three blankets I have across my soul is still not blocking the chill I have.
Which now leads me to do my checklist for all this hyperness I had today. Including the sleepless night. I understand what is going on here. Indeed my flare is coming on strong. I was doing so well.
Yet it is appropriate that it is to happen. It proves that I didn't give myself enough time to heal after surgery. And with that I must pay. Still the bright side of it all is that I now can recognize my flare up stages but still need to work on seeing how to ease out of them and what to avoid. Always a learning process.
And that is the way life should be.
So you see so much of my sleepless nights bring many good conclusions to questions I have and also start me on good lists or goals to achieve next time around.
Kind of an irritating thing to have but gotta learn. Sadly in this case I learn when I crash on the bed tomorrow evening four hours too early. Yet the benefits of thyroiditis.
And as much as I am exhausted I am still wide awake. Can we say just want to be bored to sleep right now. Yet another yawn is done and the hope of more hours to energize are erased.
Hmm. So just going to curl into a ball and hope dreams come.
Now tell me how do you release stress. Normally a walk or exercise is my way to go. Yet I know I am on restrictions right now. That eats at me but I know it is all for the better good. Yet does that stop me from wanting to do those things, absolutely not.
Though training yourself to halt is one of the hardest things to do, but if successful you gain a greater reward of health all the way around.
So for these past four months I have done almost nothing. Gaining my exercise and walking from work. Sadly I do too much on most of those days and have to recoup for three or four. Though I don't say that to work. Nope. I push through.
Now my road is recovery in so many ways. I am hoping to maintain cancer free and adjust my thyroiditis the way it should be so I can get back to taking my walks, hikes.
Yet time. That is the key to healing as well as good peace, spiritual food and encouragement. So as I sit here on my bed, in four layers of clothes the three blankets I have across my soul is still not blocking the chill I have.
Which now leads me to do my checklist for all this hyperness I had today. Including the sleepless night. I understand what is going on here. Indeed my flare is coming on strong. I was doing so well.
Yet it is appropriate that it is to happen. It proves that I didn't give myself enough time to heal after surgery. And with that I must pay. Still the bright side of it all is that I now can recognize my flare up stages but still need to work on seeing how to ease out of them and what to avoid. Always a learning process.
And that is the way life should be.
So you see so much of my sleepless nights bring many good conclusions to questions I have and also start me on good lists or goals to achieve next time around.
Kind of an irritating thing to have but gotta learn. Sadly in this case I learn when I crash on the bed tomorrow evening four hours too early. Yet the benefits of thyroiditis.
And as much as I am exhausted I am still wide awake. Can we say just want to be bored to sleep right now. Yet another yawn is done and the hope of more hours to energize are erased.
Hmm. So just going to curl into a ball and hope dreams come.
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