Chair time
Going on day number 3 in my comfy chair. Made it out yesterday for spiritual food but wasn't there long because pipes were broken so no Watchtower.
But getting to take time to talk to the brothers about my steps were nice. I set realistic spiritual goals. So much weakness I have that I am thankful for the burst of energy Jehovah gives me to go. Most times, like today i can only sleep.
So day three in chair. Moving to do minimal activity. Today no hearing even in this loud, crazy hearing world. Silence. Cotton balls with tea tree oil on them soaking up the pain and making me sleep for the first time in two days.
Right after I placed cotton balls in my ears silence and calm overtook my soul. And sleep erupted from within. It's that part of sweetness I am even more thankful for. To sleep.
Sounds out there but I sleep in medium tones. Some days it's no sleep, other days it can be 6 hours and on some days it is just cat naps all day long.
Here, in terms of time, it is a new day but for me I am still winding down. All in hopes that sleep and dreams are found not so confusing.
Just a moment I lean back my head. Closing my eyes I recall the gratitude of receiving the brochure Return to Jehovah. I think the part that hit me the most and I circled, paused, cried and nodded was that of the guilt part.
It will be a slow and surprising return for me. I miss so many people but the question of whether I am, if enough time has passed. Sadly I know before I go to Ohio I will not request anything.
My life still will have its twists and turns but a new life altogether will await me there. I am glad I don't feel rushed. I made my goals and I have planned on ways to attain them. Little by little.
Best part of sitting here is reflecting over all parts of my life. Good, bad and ugly. Surprisingly they are all good lessons in life to learn from because I don't know everything. And the day I do, I hope I pass on the good side of Jehovah.
Some nice, mellow breathing exercises to relax me even more. Soon I will be ready for my walk down my cooridor and into my doorway. Tripping on my feet and landing face down in bed. Ahhh will find my lips as I sit long enough to plug in phone for night charge and stir the pot of Vicks vapor rub beside my bed. Sliding glasses off, turning light out my eyes close and I finally say good night to today.
And then I am in a dream. Day 3 of chair is over. Meditation reeled me into relaxation and bliss. Onward my steps are, how about you? Did you set spiritual goals?
But getting to take time to talk to the brothers about my steps were nice. I set realistic spiritual goals. So much weakness I have that I am thankful for the burst of energy Jehovah gives me to go. Most times, like today i can only sleep.
So day three in chair. Moving to do minimal activity. Today no hearing even in this loud, crazy hearing world. Silence. Cotton balls with tea tree oil on them soaking up the pain and making me sleep for the first time in two days.
Right after I placed cotton balls in my ears silence and calm overtook my soul. And sleep erupted from within. It's that part of sweetness I am even more thankful for. To sleep.
Sounds out there but I sleep in medium tones. Some days it's no sleep, other days it can be 6 hours and on some days it is just cat naps all day long.
Here, in terms of time, it is a new day but for me I am still winding down. All in hopes that sleep and dreams are found not so confusing.
Just a moment I lean back my head. Closing my eyes I recall the gratitude of receiving the brochure Return to Jehovah. I think the part that hit me the most and I circled, paused, cried and nodded was that of the guilt part.
It will be a slow and surprising return for me. I miss so many people but the question of whether I am, if enough time has passed. Sadly I know before I go to Ohio I will not request anything.
My life still will have its twists and turns but a new life altogether will await me there. I am glad I don't feel rushed. I made my goals and I have planned on ways to attain them. Little by little.
Best part of sitting here is reflecting over all parts of my life. Good, bad and ugly. Surprisingly they are all good lessons in life to learn from because I don't know everything. And the day I do, I hope I pass on the good side of Jehovah.
Some nice, mellow breathing exercises to relax me even more. Soon I will be ready for my walk down my cooridor and into my doorway. Tripping on my feet and landing face down in bed. Ahhh will find my lips as I sit long enough to plug in phone for night charge and stir the pot of Vicks vapor rub beside my bed. Sliding glasses off, turning light out my eyes close and I finally say good night to today.
And then I am in a dream. Day 3 of chair is over. Meditation reeled me into relaxation and bliss. Onward my steps are, how about you? Did you set spiritual goals?
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