Decision to make cuts

       So very determined to win over this trial and yet
I cannot wrap my head around the idea of this one
pattern. All others make sense. Why this one as
me wondering why I am so awkward.

       So branching out for help. Perhaps it is because
I am a lefty and all the videos are for rightys. Goodness
knows.

        I must stop because head is flaring and steam
is pulling out of my ears. Ah how cruel I push myself
to learn all in one setting. La.

       There is always a chance I will get written
instructions from a lefty on how to do pattern. Still
looking into purchasing a book to keep on hand
just in case the mind is numb.

        Funny how my fingers don't hurt but the brain
is throbbing.

        So here it is one a.m. and I am still trying to
learn it from ten p.m. Perhaps stopping for the
evening shall be good. Maybe I will dream about
how exactly to place the fifth ring into the pattern
and then the sixth without looking like a deer caught
in the headlights.

        Come now. Red hair and that kind of look must
be as silly as a drawn smiley face. Shh don't laugh
too loud. Cannot have too many enjoying my
stubbornness.

        Shh. Words spoken or hug given. Hmm.
Now to step outside one last time before bed. If
awake come sit and smile at my silliness, if you like.

       Hmm. Perhaps.