Bliss in a dream

Of all the things in life to have gravitate into my good dreams is someone of the past. What is worse is how much at ease they are in my everyday life. Seeing me laugh with my family, seeing my mess in the midst of changing, rearranging rooms of house. This is the natural part of my life, and still there they are.

I even ask repeatedly why are they here. To a constant, multiple times a day question. Finally I have the nerve to walk up in their private time, to inquire why in the world they are here. All is said before I awake is that, " I wanted to be here."

And with that I awaken as to still, WHY? 

Nowhere do they fit in my life now. Feels as though an invasion of privacy but this push to see how I am normal, so much normal that they WANT to see, to enjoy the interaction between my family and I too.  This is a sweet gesture.  I am so clear in the understanding that they want to be here. By their own choice, they are with me to see how I am without stresses of those things in my past.

Yet here I sit, awake, thinking about how much they must have been on my mind for me to incorporated them in a natural setting of my everyday life, today. For as sure as I am that the sun will rise, I know that they are content with where they are.

So the naturalness inside my dream is sheer craziness. It is clearly me thinking, dreaming. No extra drama just collectively contentment. There is no need of anything else just laughter, friendship and a passion for building and restoration. 

As more of my family get involved in this dream. the more they are introduced to this person.  The ease. All I can do is lightly chuckle. Just saying that where ever this person is, I hope life is coming to that pivotal point where truth sits you down with the cold hard facts. 

And yet I can't understand the several exchanges and moves I made to shove their image and intelligence out of my dream, and as though a challenge they willingly addressed. Why?  What woke me, finally, was the laughter we had of hotels. One really nice one with perks and the other one that had great internet. And how you chose the modest one with great internet because you would need that kind of great system to extend your work this far. 

What all boils down to is that even in my worst, my not so best and my heightened laughter they were there to enjoy it. Perhaps that is the point to get across. The truth in the whole dream. Yet I don't claim to read nor understand dreams. All I know is that the weight of thoughts can be incorporated inside of dreams for ideals and humor. 

In this case. I did finally laugh at the idea that this person actually want to be near me and watch me interact with my family. So much so that they were willing to subject themselves to hard work fixing, with the rest of my family, the house I live in. So sit with me for a moment as I exhale for it truly was bliss watching. 

That is a part of joy that is so very vibrant. Yet truth of it all is that I am not their real person. So its more of a bit of cruelty. But hey I take what a grand dream it was.  Even more so is that I so happy that I got to have normal moments with this person. Nothing attached but lots of laughter and hugs. See, true bliss. 

So that is the interesting bits of great dream. 

Truth though is that a hope it does come true. And even though the mind has played out all the scenarios, I still wonder why, why, why did this person show up in my dreams. 

Alas as though their lives would give way to darkening the lines of life, I smile that in a dream I did get chosen. Perhaps that is the reality of the situation. I am the chosen one. And then as a tear glistens in the corner of my right eye, I say hopes are hopes, goals. Reality as my gut screams, well that is another whole stinging truths. And even as my mind singles out the details of dream, my gut says that there is truth inside this what was viewed.

With that the extension plays a big winding song. Somewhere the depth of me roars that so much is possible. Then the mind says, no. It is just a dream. Clearly you were just concerned about him. In truth, probably accurate.  But my instincts say no. Clarity rang true. 

Oh what a day to start this. And even as I sit here, I am not excited nor uptight. Just at a major calm.  To be here, calm after an exciting dream, well all I can say is thank you. The possibilities of normalcy within my life. you included, delightful. 

Imagine that to truth. Interesting. Fun. Scary and intriguing. Life long. 

But, sighing, and just accepting the now.  Happy for some exploring even if it was in a dream.