Thank you for your regret

    Dare I dream? Dare I hold onto
a memory? Dare I care now?

     Open the window. Feel the
cold night air making a
possibility available.

                BREATHE!

                       Breathe!

                             breathe.

   
      Calming the rapid film
from dancing across my mind.
Grasping. Jerking tight on the thought
of containing. Hiding the glimpse
of the past. The lost emotion. The
empty love unknown to the liars.

   Oh dare I laugh at the irony?
Dare I press for answers? Dare
I even wonder?

   Close eyes and say a prayer.
O Jehovah help me. Afraid, I am,
of what I may do if I listen to my
beating, emotional, colorless heart.
Oh please help me apply the control
you have shown.

   Slowly the breath exhales from deep
inside lungs. Relaxing. Soak into
nature. Keep the soft classical violin
entertaining, soothing. For those
exploding emotions to cease. No
longer hurting inside.

   Dare you entertain your mind of
concern?

     Jehovah helps me where hurt
ravaged me. I am held up, standing
strong by him. Thank you for your
regret. I am forgiving.

     I am well. Will be fine.
          Always. No need to look over shoulder.