Just once

   I say hello to you. Smiling
and recalling a moment of shock.

   Tokens of lost memories create
tiny waves deep within me. My spirit
no longer hides.

   So long ago, it seems, that I wanted,
needed. Still, today, I laugh at how childish
I was.

   Just once I wanted to hear the
words. Just once. Now I have a long
wait to begin. Much time has released
yet so much more to come.

  A distance I must travel to
know I am well, going to survive. Did
you know I still hurt? However I cannot
allow that to pull me down.

  No. No. No. I only hope that the
smile upon face is not fake, that
encouragement does exist inside.

  Step back. Glancing towards what
must become. So much to learn. So many
to love.

      When is my turn for the gift?
           When will my eyes shine for you?
               Can you feel my tears, my pain inside
                      your mind, conscience?

        One catch of possibilities, I will get
           to see you again. Someday soon.

                My childhood loss.