Strength to know difference

   At first I thought I was wrong for saying something
but I admit that my faith in Jehovah has kept me
hanging on. I still am uncertain but I do not lean
upon my own understanding. Proverbs 3:5 (NWT)
I know, now, whatever I am feeling is going to be
dealt with through heavy prayer, lots of meditation of
Scriptures. I know to please Jehovah I must pray
to him through his son, Jesus Christ and apply
what have learned.
James 2:24,26; 4:8, Matthew 6:9, John 14:6  (NWT)

   No longer do I tear myself down for standing
against all that I know my conscience screams,"no!" to.
I do feel weak and so very much like the dust I am but
Jehovah's holy spirit is holding me strong. Jehovah
is giving me all that is necessary to keep moving
forward. Psalm 18:2 (NWT)

   I treasure my relationship with Jehovah more
than anything. I will keep on proving self to him for
he is the only one that matters. 2Corinthians 13:5 (NWT)

   Who could not trust in Jehovah, God? All the
answers on how to live are available. All the answers
on how, why world is the way it is. Why not
listen? Why not apply?

   Slowly the tears fall as the nerves cease, the
worries fade away. The words of Jehovah spoken
truthfully, promising in the Bible. Oh how I rejoice
in learning what is there over and over.

   Jehovah, oh, how I am uncertain with what steps
to take. I ask for your holy spirit to guide, your
voice behind me pressing forth. Oh how I know
eventually answers will come. Small, slowly. I
do not demand for results as the babe I once
was. Patience you, O Jehovah, give me.
James 5:7,8 (NWT)

    How else can I be so calm when moments ago
emotions were itching inside me? Scratching a
rusty quill against my mind? How else could I be
but eased with Jehovah's guidance?

   My soul relaxes long enough and glides
peacefully into a slumber. My eyes, heavy,
close fast.

   A prayer I say once more. Urgent, specific and
sincere. Begging for help, courage to understand,
strength to press on and patience to remain
silent to listen, obey and apply.  Proverbs 12:25,
Psalm 145:18, Mark 11:24 (NWT)

   So good night my mouth whispers and praise to
Jehovah, God and his son,Jesus Christ. I finally
allow sleep to draw a warm veil over my eyes,
my mind.

                           So peaceful.