With less words

Did some cleansing. No need to over think now. The anguish I hold needs to disappear but time. It takes time to let it all release.

Sadly is I miss my daily conversations. Even more so is how I  threw friendships away because of what I saw.

Even more sad is that truth was there. It hurts so much to swallow but I have to just leave it be.

Moving on. Getting used to the one sided conversations because once again I pushed people together.  Kind of damages me over again but I did it. So I must live with the choices I made.

Even now I want to talk talk talk but it always seems like I am talking. No responses. Even though I was told to let the silence not bother me.

Did you know that we went from talking everyday to maybe 1 time in a week or 2. So yeah I have a bit of anguish over whatever I did.

Sadly I have to learn. And I am. My fault. So I smile and suck it up. Keep trekking along.

Hoping one day we get back to the regular talks. Although I know it won't happen because of new friendships and conversations built. I buried us.

I learned. Now I carry on with less words.