I have learned

I have learned through my years with you that I have gained jealousy and heartache. Just as equal as love and laughter. Still I have learned. Still I have found ways to forgive and forget. But today is enough. I can be your friend but not someone you talk to. I cannot be both any longer.

Because every time I talk to you we fight, you find me strange, I say something to make you uncomfortable and I break my heart over and over. Only then you find a reason to say I am too emotional or drastic. Sadly when friendships break like this I learn so much.

Did you know I always chide myself for things I could have changed to make you want to be my friend. Today I must start new. It hurts me, deeply. But I have to be true to me. You may call my actions drastic but I must stay positive, calling it a fresh start.

Because if you had really wanted to be a part of my life you would have recognized my personality,  the depth of me. Who I am. Not found reasons to bring up my flaws and call me names.

Just saying when the choice was given and you told me the answer I understood that day, this day would have to come.

You won. You won. Not sure what you won, but you did.

I am done.