I care

I care too much. Probably something to see both positive and negative.  Yet I see it straight down the middle.

I cannot please anyone who doesn't want me or my help. I cannot stop trying if even I tried.

Simply put either you love me as I am or you pick up the baggage carried for years and leave.

Either way I cannot stop loving you for you. Just how I am.

I know hurt and crazy times will erupt but I know how to endure because I have done so before.

Jehovah gives me the strength to continue to open my door to anything that might be there. I love that about me.

The gentle yet rough love I have for so many. The allowances I give to so many. Yet did anyone dare to give me the same?

Jehovah hears my heart, reads my thoughts.. even those that scream well into the early dawn hours.

If I was supposed to walk away the long time prayers would have told me. Jehovah would have given me answers years ago.

Still.

Here I am with open arms no matter the costs. Hoping that my efforts of love were NOT in vain. That the levels of patience I have gained were well rooted.

Indeed I hope that my caring too much doesn't let me become another option in many lives.

Nor will those I love create a wall between us and call me names in sakes to verify themselves. Oh how I hope that I actually mean something to them. Enough to be a constant need in their lives.

So much one can hope, can dream for. Yes I care too much. Yet does it harm me? I pray not.

Positive outlook is that I am some importance in lives.

Neutral outlook is just that I care.

Negative outlook is that my caring is overlooked and ignored for personal achievements.

Alas I only feel the positive.  Yet if that is only a dream then I will hold onto the hope of reality. I can do that, right?