Sincerely your friend, Mary
So much of me wants to give you hugs. So much of me wants to just hold you tight. Do I even have that right? Yet.
Leaving at that I don't know what to say. We used to talk about so many things but now its real effort to do so. I seem to think it is an is a must pressure for you to even attempt to talk to me. Like someone says, "Have you spoken to Mary today?". Then the sigh falls inside of you, then maybe days later you finally give in saying, I wonder how she is doing. She hasn't said anything to me for days, so unlike her.
Ever think I have so many thoughts that go through my head that I don't know how to stop them. I even crush them into boxes only to have them be a jack in the box and explode back out at me. Ever wonder what that is like?
Really want to talk but I don't even know how to begin anymore. As though we are at a distance on a bridge and we really can't hear anymore. Not sure if by choice or by circumstance. Still ever thought of surprising me with something? Anything. Sincerely.
Still the mind of mine says don't say a word. Let it go. Let the rolling thunder inside your head cease yet move. Yes I am learning how to let go. Not an easy feat but I am working on it.
Just so you know I did apologize once more for my behavior but I can't really know what that means to you anymore. Like if that was even worth anything to you or were they just words.
I can't judge your reaction much less how you view me. Though through you I am learning it doesn't matter, really. That I have to fade in a way but that is okay. I did it twice before so why not again?
Sincerely your friend,
Mary
Leaving at that I don't know what to say. We used to talk about so many things but now its real effort to do so. I seem to think it is an is a must pressure for you to even attempt to talk to me. Like someone says, "Have you spoken to Mary today?". Then the sigh falls inside of you, then maybe days later you finally give in saying, I wonder how she is doing. She hasn't said anything to me for days, so unlike her.
Ever think I have so many thoughts that go through my head that I don't know how to stop them. I even crush them into boxes only to have them be a jack in the box and explode back out at me. Ever wonder what that is like?
Really want to talk but I don't even know how to begin anymore. As though we are at a distance on a bridge and we really can't hear anymore. Not sure if by choice or by circumstance. Still ever thought of surprising me with something? Anything. Sincerely.
Still the mind of mine says don't say a word. Let it go. Let the rolling thunder inside your head cease yet move. Yes I am learning how to let go. Not an easy feat but I am working on it.
Just so you know I did apologize once more for my behavior but I can't really know what that means to you anymore. Like if that was even worth anything to you or were they just words.
I can't judge your reaction much less how you view me. Though through you I am learning it doesn't matter, really. That I have to fade in a way but that is okay. I did it twice before so why not again?
Sincerely your friend,
Mary
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