Whispers of confidence

      Words follow the whispers. Echoing down the
long hallway inside my mind. Locked are the passed
days. No longer taunting me with a carefree breeze.

      Carefully I draw closed the door, after the lock
clicks I stand here. My back is turned and in a moment
I hold a breath. Still the shaking of the first step
brings hesistation inside my soul, my conscience yet
I pray to Jehovah for the courage.

     Every one step pushes me. Jehovah gives the
strength where I need it. Placing a calming balm over
a struggling spirit. Still it is a question of whether
I move.

     This is the confidence I have been given from
Jehovah. The moment of curiosity of many. Will I
fall again, will I stumble?

    Oh there is a chance of a time such as that still
where would I be if I didn't take the hint from all
the Scriptures. I understand I am imperfect. There
will be times where I fall hard still the effort of
climbing back up to my feet is what Jehovah sees.
What he acknowledges.

   With that and his love I believe all is possible.
I strive to look at any point as the lessons. All those
who stand around me, amaze me.

    Those who don't know me fall short on their
assumptions. To this I am kind in remembering that
imperfections are everywhere.

   For those who knew bits and pieces of me from the
past and carry through up until now, I hope you
have noticed the changes. Still I know I will stumble
because I am imperfect but the encouraging words
that bring joy and love are just as strong as the
Scriptures given.

   Oh how, now, the words I wanted to say got
choked up because of a big brother. Silly I am for
crying yet it is amazing how rare it is to see family
hold you.

   Truly a gift worth cherishing.

    Ah tears fall and I am ever grateful for one kind
word but several - oh wow! No sarcasm sits there
just that of profound joy.

    Looking up into the sky, leaning over the iron
rail in my white cotton poet's shirt/nightgown,
smiling and thanking Jehovah for answering one
more prayer today.

  Oh the giddy joy that echoes inside. Yes dearest
friend I find myself standing in a breeze enjoying
the darkened sky, feeling ever grateful for knowledge
given.

   Now praying for my family. To hope and dream
of more kindness somewhere down the line.