Shades of rain
You roll up beside me. Finding that brief moment to have no words whatever. Then the smile. Dorky but just for me.
Yeah I can deal with times like that. So long ago it seems. So many days have gone by that it seems as though years instead of months.
Soon the times will roll on into years. And those days where laughter echoed in silence or seated somewhere fade. Not to eliminate themselves all together. Just learn to kick glimpses here and there.
Best thing about memories is how you can either see all the darkness or you can look for all that was radiant.
There are only a few people in my life I can see their darkness as their radiance. And I loved them for it. Silly how much that sounds odd but just the handful that could grasp me and still feel that I was not too quiet.
It's a surprise inside of me when I realize I would go through so much just to see their radiance again, if for a moment in a long distance instance. I chuckle.
Though now the alarms tick and the day has to be found. The memories of them had to be set aside so the reality of the world can slaughter the mind. But in those few precious seconds flashes of them remind me of joy.
Yet in my world there has been much left unsaid and I know I have lost out on many opportunities to say anything.
Yet..
I am saying them now. Not knowing if anyone is hearing that I loved all parts of them. Especially what was hard to see or even blackened to an area they didn't even like. I loved that they trusted me enough to explore those parts. And let me be a part of them, once.
Well as the memory of your funny smirk fades I have to say thanks. Just for letting me taste the brilliant part and the not so savory parts.
And with that I smile for a long time. Recalling the tiny bits of warmth and sincerity given. Even though I couldn't give you any of me.
Simple pieces. Kind minutes allowed. Seconds away, now gone. All I have are memories. And all I can look at is the radiance you had. And the gratitude I have for being allowed a moment of your time.
Kindness in shades of rain.
Yeah I can deal with times like that. So long ago it seems. So many days have gone by that it seems as though years instead of months.
Soon the times will roll on into years. And those days where laughter echoed in silence or seated somewhere fade. Not to eliminate themselves all together. Just learn to kick glimpses here and there.
Best thing about memories is how you can either see all the darkness or you can look for all that was radiant.
There are only a few people in my life I can see their darkness as their radiance. And I loved them for it. Silly how much that sounds odd but just the handful that could grasp me and still feel that I was not too quiet.
It's a surprise inside of me when I realize I would go through so much just to see their radiance again, if for a moment in a long distance instance. I chuckle.
Though now the alarms tick and the day has to be found. The memories of them had to be set aside so the reality of the world can slaughter the mind. But in those few precious seconds flashes of them remind me of joy.
Yet in my world there has been much left unsaid and I know I have lost out on many opportunities to say anything.
Yet..
I am saying them now. Not knowing if anyone is hearing that I loved all parts of them. Especially what was hard to see or even blackened to an area they didn't even like. I loved that they trusted me enough to explore those parts. And let me be a part of them, once.
Well as the memory of your funny smirk fades I have to say thanks. Just for letting me taste the brilliant part and the not so savory parts.
And with that I smile for a long time. Recalling the tiny bits of warmth and sincerity given. Even though I couldn't give you any of me.
Simple pieces. Kind minutes allowed. Seconds away, now gone. All I have are memories. And all I can look at is the radiance you had. And the gratitude I have for being allowed a moment of your time.
Kindness in shades of rain.
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