Good times
After all I have experienced in this last month I am grateful to say that it's good to see friends finally feeling free enough to express their love towards those who are significant in their lives. Sure there are moments when they can not fully show it for the possibility of causing rift in an old wound.
Yet for me I am so happy to see them give flowers,go on vacations, do simple things as food dates, holding hands, kisses and whatever they want because it feels right. That for me is the greatest sight. And when I finally see them openly placing their devotion to the world, my heart will leap with joy.
I know, to some that may sound sarcastic but it far from it. What I have experienced with cancer these last few days is enough to give a new appreciation to those who care deeply for others. And if I am wrong by projecting and even protecting my friends of their joy then so be it. I won't break them from their happiness nor even rob them of their time.
I have mine and it's very precious. All weights are upon the next few months. I am hoping for goodness and that is how I maintain every step I have. Sure I have my extreme low moments but I remember I am working through it.
Man I think the most disappointing part of me is my hair loss and the weakness. The loss of wanting to eat is up there too. But I still breathe and I still hope. So that is goodness in every step.
With that those people who I love from the past and now, are who keep me moving. The keep my head up. With that every day I have is worth whatever I get.
Say it as a proud thing but it's more of a joyous thing.
So pardon the downer moment. I had a really rough week. Migraines. Stomach sickness and extreme fatigue. Lots that can pull a person's spirits down. But today I have had a moment of time to reflect on all the good times during the week. Knowing tomorrow is a start of a new week.
I have the outlook of anything is possible. And I am on the way as looking over every step as that way.
And when I am exhausted I pray for garlic soup and laughter. So hold me in a moment of smiles and be joyous of my friends.
Whether they know they are mine or not.
Yet for me I am so happy to see them give flowers,go on vacations, do simple things as food dates, holding hands, kisses and whatever they want because it feels right. That for me is the greatest sight. And when I finally see them openly placing their devotion to the world, my heart will leap with joy.
I know, to some that may sound sarcastic but it far from it. What I have experienced with cancer these last few days is enough to give a new appreciation to those who care deeply for others. And if I am wrong by projecting and even protecting my friends of their joy then so be it. I won't break them from their happiness nor even rob them of their time.
I have mine and it's very precious. All weights are upon the next few months. I am hoping for goodness and that is how I maintain every step I have. Sure I have my extreme low moments but I remember I am working through it.
Man I think the most disappointing part of me is my hair loss and the weakness. The loss of wanting to eat is up there too. But I still breathe and I still hope. So that is goodness in every step.
With that those people who I love from the past and now, are who keep me moving. The keep my head up. With that every day I have is worth whatever I get.
Say it as a proud thing but it's more of a joyous thing.
So pardon the downer moment. I had a really rough week. Migraines. Stomach sickness and extreme fatigue. Lots that can pull a person's spirits down. But today I have had a moment of time to reflect on all the good times during the week. Knowing tomorrow is a start of a new week.
I have the outlook of anything is possible. And I am on the way as looking over every step as that way.
And when I am exhausted I pray for garlic soup and laughter. So hold me in a moment of smiles and be joyous of my friends.
Whether they know they are mine or not.
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