Hmm just will be

You know those moments when your heart races when you think of that one person, all you want to do is shout it out. Yet the only thing I can do is silently tell myself to shut it down.

Clear it out of my mind and carry through the day. The silly but best intrigue about it all is if this one person ever heard,  I think embarrassment would weigh heavy. Why? Well the thought of having to explain why their name is even left with sweetness inside my mouth. That is the wonder of it all.

How after all this time could I utter something so kind and gentle? Yet all thoughts have been bliss. Even the worst of it all.

I suppose that is probably where the embarrassment comes into play. Yet I doubt it.

Then the day just leaves and the night proceeds to cackle. How though would my mind see goodness?

And it does.

Just one day. Just one hope. Yet perhaps the fool is me in all parts of life but I like to believe there is goodness even in the blackest of black.

Maybe  wrong sightlines but I am optimistic. I dream. I hope. I know.

The truth in it all is that even though I would be embarrassed at least it would be known. And then life can settle understanding the reality of what I already know.

Hmm. Just will be.