Keep blessing
I sat here searching for an explaination as to why someone would feel justified to attack my words. Yet all I could do was find myself loving them for their need to draw attention to my imperfections and my past.
It just made me pray for the goodness to come to their mind. To hope for the best and really want the positive to drop straight into their laps. Clearly I didn't even phase that their words from others were hateful. I just kept on scrolling.
Selfishly I wanted to make known my changes but what good would that be if their minds were closed to everything but what they had been told? What good is it if the veil that is upon their eyes are blinding them of possibilities? I just told myself to walk away.
No point in exhausting myself nor trying to prove who I am. That clearly will never change their mindset much less give any positive light to me. So I just had to keep praying for them. Do things from afar and look forward to the days I gain coming.
See that is what drastic life changes can do to you. Completely doing 360 can make you see the irrelevance of something that was once greatly desired. This makes it easier for you to focus on the reality of simplicity. I cannot stress enough just how beautiful a breath of fresh air is or even the wind whistling in the trees.
Plainly given but overlooked by millions. That is what a change of direction or choices can do to you. Wouldn't you like to experience that? I mean do it all on your own and just believe in the glorious wonders?
Supposedly you did just tackle one part of your life. Did that major change in view and explored all avenues in turning around. What would it feel like for you? Maybe scary, a little bit but still exhilarating too. But are you willing to turn around and follow that course?
I know how daunting that can be. Granted only with my experience, not yours. I took a part of me I hated and just flipped. I didn't even want to look at my malfunctioning views but in doing so, one at a time, I saw that living this way was only going to harm in the long run.
Yet I did many life changing aspect I am still in process of such. Many days I'd like nothing but to forgo portions of the strenuous routine but if I do, I fall severely and have months to recoup. I'd rather not do that.
So am I a help to those who attack me, probably not. Yet I just know that their vicious words were only supposed to make a rise out of me. Let me just say this, I have agape for them. Sincerity of my love. For I recognize that some can be swayed or influenced because we all are so imperfect.
So what all I can do is pray, hope and give my compassion. It doesn't seem like much but it so reminds me of Romans 12:14 "keep on blessing those who persecute, bless and do not curse" (NWT). That helps me maintain a healthly view that so many do no know me and are just as imperfect as me.
That is the best view and choice of mindset I have made in a long time. It took nearly eight months for me to do it but I am grateful for the help I gained. And as each step or slope I climb gets closer I make note of the outcomes. Then process them as learning tools.
Yet only one thing comes to mind as I look back on today. Why does loving a person have to be so bad? Whether it be agape, eros, philia or storge why does it matter?
Still I leave that question to you. I know my answers and I continue forward. And as for those who only listen to hearsay and not truth, I feel great pity for you. But not as so much it drowns me.
I can carry forward, how about you?
It just made me pray for the goodness to come to their mind. To hope for the best and really want the positive to drop straight into their laps. Clearly I didn't even phase that their words from others were hateful. I just kept on scrolling.
Selfishly I wanted to make known my changes but what good would that be if their minds were closed to everything but what they had been told? What good is it if the veil that is upon their eyes are blinding them of possibilities? I just told myself to walk away.
No point in exhausting myself nor trying to prove who I am. That clearly will never change their mindset much less give any positive light to me. So I just had to keep praying for them. Do things from afar and look forward to the days I gain coming.
See that is what drastic life changes can do to you. Completely doing 360 can make you see the irrelevance of something that was once greatly desired. This makes it easier for you to focus on the reality of simplicity. I cannot stress enough just how beautiful a breath of fresh air is or even the wind whistling in the trees.
Plainly given but overlooked by millions. That is what a change of direction or choices can do to you. Wouldn't you like to experience that? I mean do it all on your own and just believe in the glorious wonders?
Supposedly you did just tackle one part of your life. Did that major change in view and explored all avenues in turning around. What would it feel like for you? Maybe scary, a little bit but still exhilarating too. But are you willing to turn around and follow that course?
I know how daunting that can be. Granted only with my experience, not yours. I took a part of me I hated and just flipped. I didn't even want to look at my malfunctioning views but in doing so, one at a time, I saw that living this way was only going to harm in the long run.
Yet I did many life changing aspect I am still in process of such. Many days I'd like nothing but to forgo portions of the strenuous routine but if I do, I fall severely and have months to recoup. I'd rather not do that.
So am I a help to those who attack me, probably not. Yet I just know that their vicious words were only supposed to make a rise out of me. Let me just say this, I have agape for them. Sincerity of my love. For I recognize that some can be swayed or influenced because we all are so imperfect.
So what all I can do is pray, hope and give my compassion. It doesn't seem like much but it so reminds me of Romans 12:14 "keep on blessing those who persecute, bless and do not curse" (NWT). That helps me maintain a healthly view that so many do no know me and are just as imperfect as me.
That is the best view and choice of mindset I have made in a long time. It took nearly eight months for me to do it but I am grateful for the help I gained. And as each step or slope I climb gets closer I make note of the outcomes. Then process them as learning tools.
Yet only one thing comes to mind as I look back on today. Why does loving a person have to be so bad? Whether it be agape, eros, philia or storge why does it matter?
Still I leave that question to you. I know my answers and I continue forward. And as for those who only listen to hearsay and not truth, I feel great pity for you. But not as so much it drowns me.
I can carry forward, how about you?
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