How I let go

Grant me the strength to walk away from you.
Even when you ask me to stay.
Tell me to say no.

Don't let me get angry with myself
for losing you. For I know I will
question myself repeatedly whether
the choices I made were right.

Do I dare to cry?
Giving you the satisfaction of knowing
just how hurt I was when I left you.

Oh how damaging that can be.

Hold back.
Stay away, things I say to myself.
Pass by but never glance. 

Carelessly I loved like a fool.
Laughing so much, I do now, to 
swallow the still blazing ache.

Echoes within the fragile ice heart
dance only carefully. I taste only the 
salt that melts me. Daily I find reasons
to show how I must learn to trust.

And still I settle in my mind,
who is there to trust? 

I forge this steel grip within me
stating I dreamed too much. I let
myself believe such oddities.

Only to know now that I placed 
damage in my life. I loved. 
I shared. I gave. 
Yet.

Even now as happiness sits
with me everyday, some words,
places reminds me of you.

I hid my tears. I fake a smile even
though I break the ice inside. 

All I hoped was to be asked to be
yours. Yet now I understand the
wisdom to walk away. 

Not foolish. Just tired.
No longer tempted by your 
words. I just recall the memories.

They float carefully around
places and I return with new
memories. Replacing the 
pain with joy. 

Yes you will always be a part of me.
But today you are just the 
past.