Age

I sat in the car today talking to my mother. As we spoke it really dawned on me that the women in our family look young despite the actual age. My mother nearing her 70th year and my aunt her 77th, I come to see just how much they outlived the men in their lives. 

I then wondered over time of the ones in my life and my grandmothers. Strange how she survived passed her siblings and even my grandfather. Yet even though that idea, they all were not young when they passed. 

My grandfather was 76. My great aunts were 83 and 94. And now I slap myself upside the head and think wow I many years to come. 

Yet then I thought of the realization of when the paradise comes, I want to be there, living forever. I may have "time" but I really DON'T have time. The end is closing in. I have been noticing that for years. 

So urgency is there in so many ways. Yet all I can do is follow what the brothers say and hope that Jehovah allows me to come back. 

A prayer that is heard daily,hourly and momentarily. Truly a deep rooted hope. 

And as I recognize the longevity in my family I am also fully aware of the urgency and the fact my life can change in the very next second.

And the question I have weighing in my mind is : Am I protected by Jehovah? See that is the awareness of spiritual need. 

Each day the question ticks in my mind a million times. So I pray to ease the pressure. And each time I feel as though I am drowning I recognize the strength of God giving me courage and perseverance. 

And as I sigh in this moment, as one does several times in an hour, I am leaning on a strong hope and putting my trust in Jehovah. So that maybe tomorrow I am wearing the armour from Jehovah. Warming in his shielded protection. 

So sure age matters but not in the sense most think it does. To me it's the awareness blazing further inside of me to press forward for the hope of being in Paradise on earth, my dream.

And for you, age means what?