Stronger now

               Trailing a silent sound in the rain. So hard
to imagine how the words fit. So softly the murmur comes.
Gone once more, so rapidly. A calm feeling in the breeze,
if you can believe.

              I was so sure of the position I was turning. Still,
now, the rotation is still loving the circles. Yet I have
one foot standing on the turntable and one placed,
skipping, falling onto the earth.

             Quietly I find myself holding onto a moment
inside a memory. One that brings grays to blues then
shoving into the deepest purplish navies. Oh so vivid
is the sight, the scenery. The scents, the emotions find
me quivering. Enthralling me. Oh but I know it is all
a recollection of something washed beneath a bridge,
out to sea.

            Oh so much, still, I blink back choking upon the
sighs. I am feeling the depth of the tearing of sensitive
spots, raging emotions. So much is explored, explained.

          Though falling is the storm that ran through,
torturing and entertaining the mind. Yet even in the
darkest of seconds there was hope.

          I noted, how, even today I am walking. Moving
and learning from the experience. Granted there are
the stalled minutes that roll "what ifs" across the memory.
I don't dwell. There was too much uncertainty, too much
lost and so much hurt. I cannot let that burning pain
sit long, inside me. Pressing forward, you will see.

         Yes I am hitting on the main point of how much
regreat was found, how much sorrow has been felt.
Though I am still standing, still enduring because that
is what I must do. Oh yes my head pounds the wall
at times. I even have days when anger hits, heats
but I recall why, how I started over.

         Oh yes that is the kindness in the worst of
memories. The strength I found. Still so much causes me
to blink back the tears and then I think of who I am
now. Recalling I am so much stronger now.

         Still dear friend, stormy grays rage through
emotions. Daring me to hold so much back. Allowance
of only the release here.

                 Is that wrong?

                                        Tell me.