Mist across a memory

          Sounds of the dripping leaves of yesterday found
a lost memory, event failing to fade. One that I had
hoped would draw out the change of me.

           So clear was the echo of my childhood. The greatest
yet simplest bond of siblings. Oh how the ache strikes,
leaving just a trail of redness and tears. Just as I
did not want to experience.

          Still it burst open the depth of mourning I am
holding. The wails of silence in a room. So holding me
seems as though lifetimes ago yet they were not. Just
6 years ago I did hold you.

         Finding you weary but still holding on. Still giving
the best you had, even if it were your last penny or
breath. So clear all things seems, so happy the echoes
were raving.

        Ah but you understood. My sister.

         Indeed now I am here, trying my best to make
poetry in positive lights. I too struggle with the
momentary pain. Not wanting to explain to anyone the
hurt I feel. Ah yes some do hear.

         The words just fail me in these seconds. Demanding
me to straighten up and press forward is Jehovah's
love. For not, I would be lost.

          So all that have siblings, find graciousness in the
precious links, find happiness in a squabble and love
unconditionally. For I hope I will when I gain mine back.

         Indeed I am low. Indeed I cry. Indeed I suffer.
But I live, I endure and press forward because I can.
So yes, my dear friend, the simplest of hugs is the grandest
thing ever.

         So dearly I miss my sister. Once I was pulled inside
an embrace and held longingly. Once more I pray
for a moment such as that.

         I admit I am weak. I admit I am emotional. I
admit that I have my stand clear moments but don't
ever stop talking to me. One nice thing, Jehovah gave
me a book of friends. Be glad I turn to you second to
him.

        So here, I am, drying up my tears. Feeling the
sweet night air roll through the screen window. Just
enough pressure to lift my spirit to hope for one more
hug.

       Indeed not too much to ask.

       Yes. No. Maybe. If. Perhaps.