Exits

      Listening to the words rumbling inside my
head. So much I want to say and yet nothing exits
but tears.

       Softly the tripwire echoes the hurt and yet I
keep running. Oh distances I travel to look the other
way.

      Shh I hear my head say to the racing heart and
the gasping lungs. Shh.

      Still I quake over the misinformed words.
Watching how the letters soak into the evening skies.

      Over and over again the tears fall. One by one
the steps I move are painful yet I must keep going
forward.

     Just a moment ago I sat outside, hoping the
heat of the lightning sky would pull the mood from
my soul and help my spirit fly. Did it work, you may
wonder?

     At current moment only thing working is a tall
glass of port with a small double old fashioned glass
of water. Hmm. To soothe the soul and ease the
mind, the emotions. Anything currently to numb
what is raging inside.

    Oh my spirit sings and yet I am unclear on me.
The rest of the story beckons a moment, too.

     One day. Each second takes it's turn. Spinning
wildly in a tamed, controlled environment. See me
standing tall when screams just hover over my
tongue?

     Perhaps. A chill to echo a small formed laughter.
One where the joyful spirit becomes more and more
radiant inside the seconds of disappearing emotions.

    Hear me oh friend of mine. The smiles are not
enough today. The voice was muted for variance.
The hand flew but the mind emptied until I praised
Jehovah for telling all what was necessary.

   Ah how even now the sighs of relief for I knew I
could not say all that was heard. An attempt was
noted.

    Now the sensitive parts of me have been contained.
Looking forward to the good pieces of a lasting bit
of cheesecake and port. Then to sleep my
soul falls until the pink cottons twist and alarm my
mind to alert.

    So dear friend, I have been bratty. I have been
coy. I have been quirky. I have been cute. I have
been sexy, hyper, helpful, sensitive and loving.
What have you been today? Have you seen this
little sister in any other form?

     Hmm. I would do well to pay attention and hope
you have something I must learn. So teach.