Did you listen to reply or understand, truth?
I like how I have recognized being okay with who I am. It is sad when you see people who are unclear about who they are. So much that the need to help is there. Yet I have met my fair share of people who just aren't ready for my kind of help. Nor even just me.
Sure they like the aspect of my encouragement. Yet it isn't me giving it. I am just the instrument being used. And I don't mind. Yet I also recognize the reality of situations. I hold back, refrain from making my voice heard because most can't deal with what is given.
I usually remain quiet for the thoughts in my head can be brutal. Especially for those who don't want to hear the reality of the situation. Frankly I am quite used to being brushed off. Even more so is the offense people have when I dole out the blantent truth.
I am sorry I never learned how to sugar coat things. I learned to be straightforward or quiet. And when you think you are brave enough to ask what I am thinking, seriously, you shouldn't get bent out of shape when I address all that I am observing.
Clearly if you had wanted a lie you could have turned yourself to a mirror.
Yes I understand that depth. I have stared at myself in my own mirror. On many occasions I have been shocked. Yet the last few days so many things clicked. Locked themselves into place.
I even found myself looking back at my past to see the repeat in yesterday.
Yes your defenses went straight up. Telling me I was wrong. Telling me that I didn't have all my facts. Yet did you even know your own? And today when I fell silent I wasn't missed.
That made me recognize just how much you reminded me of the old. I didn't want to step back there. And sadly I had to say my silent good byes. Waving but no one saw.
As I am sitting now I even wonder if it will be noticed the next few weeks. In truth, hope places itself deep within. Though this hope isn't the positive. With that pressing reality, I can grasp just how much a game I was to you.
In all seriousness, did you think I would play for long? I mean I have seen this ploy already. Did you think I would willingly place myself back into a demeaning scene such as this?
No. You defended who you thought needed to be defended. And today I recognized that both of you need each other. And to that I am grateful Jehovah gave me strength to walk steady, head held high and courage to just give up on a lost cause.
My job is through.
Seek each other for that is where you won't find encouragement. Just flesh. Yet that is what you need. And I am going onward.
As much as it damages and makes me even more guarded I am grateful of the recognition given or lack of it. Call me crazy, for that is what most do. All for the reasoning that I speak the truth even if it is dark.
I have learned my lesson. Funny how people think I am too shy or too silent. Indeed I gave my thoughts to someone, once more, only to be torn. Though not as deep because I understood the replay of events. And as I am moving where I need to be to grow, I hope one day you will understand the depth of your loss.
Jehovah will help you grasp. Not me.
He will be the one you seek and cry out to. For I cannot help you. I tried. I got overlooked and even corrected when I was stating the obvious. And clearly I was right for even silence is given to me. Peace.
Thankful to the opportunity to display love where I could. I just, now, understand the different levels of love. Storge and agape is all I can extend. To overexert any other part would been for truth to be given in all aspects. Not a berating, scolding of my thoughts.
Some people listen to reply and some listen to understand. Did you really understand me after my thoughts were given? No. You replied and made me apologize for having thoughts.
No thank you. Especially when you ASKED my thoughts. Dare you scold. Your mistake to insult and dismiss my thoughts and opinions, observations. As well as assume I was incorrect. As well as defend the one person you call names. Just wow!
WOW!
Enjoy the life you are living. I hope all gets better, but without me. I closed that door. Slammed and burned. I hope you understand now. Listened to understand clearly.
Sure they like the aspect of my encouragement. Yet it isn't me giving it. I am just the instrument being used. And I don't mind. Yet I also recognize the reality of situations. I hold back, refrain from making my voice heard because most can't deal with what is given.
I usually remain quiet for the thoughts in my head can be brutal. Especially for those who don't want to hear the reality of the situation. Frankly I am quite used to being brushed off. Even more so is the offense people have when I dole out the blantent truth.
I am sorry I never learned how to sugar coat things. I learned to be straightforward or quiet. And when you think you are brave enough to ask what I am thinking, seriously, you shouldn't get bent out of shape when I address all that I am observing.
Clearly if you had wanted a lie you could have turned yourself to a mirror.
Yes I understand that depth. I have stared at myself in my own mirror. On many occasions I have been shocked. Yet the last few days so many things clicked. Locked themselves into place.
I even found myself looking back at my past to see the repeat in yesterday.
Yes your defenses went straight up. Telling me I was wrong. Telling me that I didn't have all my facts. Yet did you even know your own? And today when I fell silent I wasn't missed.
That made me recognize just how much you reminded me of the old. I didn't want to step back there. And sadly I had to say my silent good byes. Waving but no one saw.
As I am sitting now I even wonder if it will be noticed the next few weeks. In truth, hope places itself deep within. Though this hope isn't the positive. With that pressing reality, I can grasp just how much a game I was to you.
In all seriousness, did you think I would play for long? I mean I have seen this ploy already. Did you think I would willingly place myself back into a demeaning scene such as this?
No. You defended who you thought needed to be defended. And today I recognized that both of you need each other. And to that I am grateful Jehovah gave me strength to walk steady, head held high and courage to just give up on a lost cause.
My job is through.
Seek each other for that is where you won't find encouragement. Just flesh. Yet that is what you need. And I am going onward.
As much as it damages and makes me even more guarded I am grateful of the recognition given or lack of it. Call me crazy, for that is what most do. All for the reasoning that I speak the truth even if it is dark.
I have learned my lesson. Funny how people think I am too shy or too silent. Indeed I gave my thoughts to someone, once more, only to be torn. Though not as deep because I understood the replay of events. And as I am moving where I need to be to grow, I hope one day you will understand the depth of your loss.
Jehovah will help you grasp. Not me.
He will be the one you seek and cry out to. For I cannot help you. I tried. I got overlooked and even corrected when I was stating the obvious. And clearly I was right for even silence is given to me. Peace.
Thankful to the opportunity to display love where I could. I just, now, understand the different levels of love. Storge and agape is all I can extend. To overexert any other part would been for truth to be given in all aspects. Not a berating, scolding of my thoughts.
Some people listen to reply and some listen to understand. Did you really understand me after my thoughts were given? No. You replied and made me apologize for having thoughts.
No thank you. Especially when you ASKED my thoughts. Dare you scold. Your mistake to insult and dismiss my thoughts and opinions, observations. As well as assume I was incorrect. As well as defend the one person you call names. Just wow!
WOW!
Enjoy the life you are living. I hope all gets better, but without me. I closed that door. Slammed and burned. I hope you understand now. Listened to understand clearly.
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