I told my truth
Mostly the days have been exciting but when you find yourself in this drone of a mode it's best to quickly find a way out. Legally.
Sometimes you find yourself not really in the mode of talking to any one and when you do treading softly is the key. Being pressured to tell whole story is not ideal when in this mode.
Yet I have been told to do so. And now I feel empty. Not sure what will hit me afterwards but the truth is real. When it is said, done and explained what comes after is only the wave of joy. May even have heartache but worth and trust is there.
Sadly in reference I just may lose more people but I have found that this new me is different. I have walked away from so much turmoil that I can survive many different things.
And now I sigh. Knowing that I saw you were still friends with her. Still even defending her. It hurts that you can't see me as a different person. That hurts my heart.
Makes tears fall from my eyes but I have to say this, I am not surprised. You like her too. But I did tell you what?
Do you remember?
I won't lower myself if you can have the right sense to chose. So now we become distant again. That is how it has to be.
You should have thoroughly thought about things. You should have understood the devestating things that ripped me big.
Yet you don't WANT to understand. Sadly that is how it has to be. But it hurts me and it will for a while but I am good. I survive. I push forward.
And what will you do, look into your circle years down the road, seeing me only as this crazy woman. As you label every woman you dice.
It's okay I have been called worse. Just saddens me to see your circle and who you chose. It sadden me for the ones who are getting involved right now, never know the full extent of you.
Even worse, I didn't know the full extent of you. But I have learned people change.
You have. In some ways but still the same tricks and the same white lies. Just so sad.
And here I am just mellow. Knowing I am not part of that circle anymore. Because you chose.
So now pardon the dust as my wheels spin in your face. I had you. Once. My friend. But now. We speak in a distant cloud. How do you hear me?
You don't. Not my problem. You decided not to listen.
I told my story. As rightful as I am allowed. Secrets are out. I never understood why we had to be a secret.
Now I don't need to know. If you were proud to be with me you would just say it. Even show it. But that is the game you have, isn't it?
Oh well. Not my problem.
Seek me out if you want but understand we start as strangers again.
Sometimes you find yourself not really in the mode of talking to any one and when you do treading softly is the key. Being pressured to tell whole story is not ideal when in this mode.
Yet I have been told to do so. And now I feel empty. Not sure what will hit me afterwards but the truth is real. When it is said, done and explained what comes after is only the wave of joy. May even have heartache but worth and trust is there.
Sadly in reference I just may lose more people but I have found that this new me is different. I have walked away from so much turmoil that I can survive many different things.
And now I sigh. Knowing that I saw you were still friends with her. Still even defending her. It hurts that you can't see me as a different person. That hurts my heart.
Makes tears fall from my eyes but I have to say this, I am not surprised. You like her too. But I did tell you what?
Do you remember?
I won't lower myself if you can have the right sense to chose. So now we become distant again. That is how it has to be.
You should have thoroughly thought about things. You should have understood the devestating things that ripped me big.
Yet you don't WANT to understand. Sadly that is how it has to be. But it hurts me and it will for a while but I am good. I survive. I push forward.
And what will you do, look into your circle years down the road, seeing me only as this crazy woman. As you label every woman you dice.
It's okay I have been called worse. Just saddens me to see your circle and who you chose. It sadden me for the ones who are getting involved right now, never know the full extent of you.
Even worse, I didn't know the full extent of you. But I have learned people change.
You have. In some ways but still the same tricks and the same white lies. Just so sad.
And here I am just mellow. Knowing I am not part of that circle anymore. Because you chose.
So now pardon the dust as my wheels spin in your face. I had you. Once. My friend. But now. We speak in a distant cloud. How do you hear me?
You don't. Not my problem. You decided not to listen.
I told my story. As rightful as I am allowed. Secrets are out. I never understood why we had to be a secret.
Now I don't need to know. If you were proud to be with me you would just say it. Even show it. But that is the game you have, isn't it?
Oh well. Not my problem.
Seek me out if you want but understand we start as strangers again.
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