I am damaged and imperfect but I grow
Parts of me are severely damaged but only because of the hopes that things were in fact different. Only though it was proven I was the change and I needed to be lied to for the remaining parts to be in lives of others.
Yet I don't need to be told anything because I many forget I read so much. The instance you questioned me for not liking someone, but for the depth you have no clue of, and defending saying their life is just as bad.
Well I do say I feel bad that they are struggling and I do pray for those people but I NEVER want to be a part of any kind of friendship with that person. Not even in the most distant memory.
And to ridicule me for stating the depth of that statement, it proves to me once more you are still involved.
I can't help but feel true remorse for ever giving a new chance. I can't even begin to understand why the compulsion is there. Yet somewhere in the back of my mind I get it. I really do.
The need of that kind of attention. If that is soooooooooooo important to you then you don't need me in your life. I just complicate things.
So just decide what is more important.
I will living my life. Getting along just fine as I did before. Carrying on and letting go as I should.
Being my carefree self. But mark my words, I will NOT stand by and wait. If I am such an important role in your life you best speak up.
I am not part of the game you play. I am real. I certainly don't need to be a key role like before. Find another person to play your mouse.
I still am growing and by far I know my worth. And I know where my loyalty is. Where is yours?
Do I trust? I really don't know at this moment.
Do I forgive yes. Do I forget the pain, no. Do I forget your choices, yes. But I do move forward.
So if you are wanting to be REALLY REALLY a part of my life, think long and hard. For the choice you make only impacts you for the better.
But I won't be a party to any schemes or parades. I gave that up. So listen to me now, friend or not I am moving along.
Hop on my wagon or get out of the way.
Yet I don't need to be told anything because I many forget I read so much. The instance you questioned me for not liking someone, but for the depth you have no clue of, and defending saying their life is just as bad.
Well I do say I feel bad that they are struggling and I do pray for those people but I NEVER want to be a part of any kind of friendship with that person. Not even in the most distant memory.
And to ridicule me for stating the depth of that statement, it proves to me once more you are still involved.
I can't help but feel true remorse for ever giving a new chance. I can't even begin to understand why the compulsion is there. Yet somewhere in the back of my mind I get it. I really do.
The need of that kind of attention. If that is soooooooooooo important to you then you don't need me in your life. I just complicate things.
So just decide what is more important.
I will living my life. Getting along just fine as I did before. Carrying on and letting go as I should.
Being my carefree self. But mark my words, I will NOT stand by and wait. If I am such an important role in your life you best speak up.
I am not part of the game you play. I am real. I certainly don't need to be a key role like before. Find another person to play your mouse.
I still am growing and by far I know my worth. And I know where my loyalty is. Where is yours?
Do I trust? I really don't know at this moment.
Do I forgive yes. Do I forget the pain, no. Do I forget your choices, yes. But I do move forward.
So if you are wanting to be REALLY REALLY a part of my life, think long and hard. For the choice you make only impacts you for the better.
But I won't be a party to any schemes or parades. I gave that up. So listen to me now, friend or not I am moving along.
Hop on my wagon or get out of the way.
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