One day to forget I was Mary

        Why is it the one day I want to
forget about being me has to be the
longest? I just wanted company.
Instead I got disappointment.

        Seems to be the run of the mill
for this day, always. I look forward to
silence in the morning. Maybe that
brisk walk this morning will be enough
to forget.

       Alas today already on the go
but to slow it down just enough to
savor it. Haha. Probably too much
sarcasm to erupt.

     So here is to the silence and
being in company of one or two I
want to be with. Well it is good.

    Best not to receive what I would
like. Besides typical that things
happen this way. Oh well.

    The irony of something too good
is here and gotta just pick myself
up and keep pressing on. Just a low
hiss finds air and the sigh of sighs.

    Now getting out of this deep mode
and into the enduring smiley one.
Yes I wanted. Yes I hope. Yes I
really held onto this dream but
reality always crashes, crushes
through and laughs.

   Ah. Yes this breath of cold
frosty air is good for me. Dries
up the tears and helps me hold
my head higher.

   As for the dream it is best remaining
in my sleep where love, warmth and
hope remains.

   Indeed tears fall but I will be fine.
Strong I will be. But for now I will just
cuddle into my covers until the
alarm pulls me once more to awaken.

    Sad a bit I could not share my
need to be in company. Alas work
will break the mold and I soon
will forget the disappointment of the
morning.

    So good day to you and don't
dare wonder what I was in need of.
Alas by the time you will wonder I
will have pressed on. As it is supposed
to be.

   Grr is all I can say before I fall
asleep once more. Hopefully this  time
I awaken without the need of anything.