Declined day

      Some days such splendor arrives
only to break and fall down the next.
Yet here I stand up one more time.
Only realizing the hope to finally be
free was just that - a hope.

      The sarcasm that echoes burns.
Just a small laugh as tears fall down
my face. What, how and why form
vibrating questions in my head.

      Still even though I am hurting
I get back up. "Suck it up " because
no one person is going to help me
with my troubles. Only going to
press me further down.

      Best for me to not dwell on the
rubbery appearance of reddish
welted skin. Forget and lean on my
real support.

      Yes tears still fall but time does
heal. Throwing yourself into a
whirlwind of activity helps make the
pain find freedom.  Funny how as
much as it clings,  choking you
the life still vibrant begs to open.

     So here I stand, waiting, on broken
glass. Enduring the sharpest of stings
and still thriving. Learning that
I can, I will continue to press forward
for one more time I have learned of
another trial I can overcome.

     Still you may ask how, why but
be sure I can and I will. To you that
must show my tolerance of pain, of
humility.  I continue.

      Funny even now the tears keep
falling and my face turns more and
more in tune with the newest color
of red I have added. So in tune with
the color that even the red Mary of
yesterday finds comedy in this
satirical view.

     So here, I do not wallow in pity.
Just regaining my strength to move
forward. Just now to readjust my
life for the waves of clear uncertainty.

     Still I know I will be okay. Not
backing down today. Upward glance
and smile following suit. I am here.

      Just love me. Just hug me.
Just smile for me. I will keep pressing
on. Just as I must.