Profoundly silent
I used to write in these profound ways but now my voice is a bit more silent. I can't help but to thank Jehovah for that. I am not angry over anything much these days. The fact that I am capable of enduring the situations that arise are truly because of my faith and trust in Jehovah.
The facing of opposition within my household has found me finding ways to see the positive in every hit I get. This helps me persevere in prayer. My thoughts are truly how do I make peace or the environment neutral when in company of the one who objects to my faith. Then I just know that after a whispering talk to Jehovah, that I am able to see all that is negative. Finding the reality of the situation. Not doing anything but being quiet and loving. Not fighting back is often the best answer to all that can assault you.
I learn that as a kind reminder in the convention. Granted this entire convention is about making disciples and how to help them, it is still about reminders to us all. We all still grow. Once we stop, we must lay to rest. Take yourself back to the day you started studying the bible. Learning and adjusting your life.
In my moments of misunderstandings with the opposition and the hatred spewed at me, I have to recall I, too, am so imperfect. I, too, was opposing of those who tried to teach me before. And I too was hateful. So in my way I must recall that people can change. That is how I have to go. Be a silent witness to the one who doesn't like what I believe in.
For the world around us is in companion of what is wicked. I, too, was a part of that, several times. And now, how am I different? I have experienced a wave of complications and trials that made me choose whether it was my way or Jehovah's. In truth, I did my way several times. Still I came back to what I know is real, stable and loving. Jehovah.
I sit here watching over the requirements for the meetings, videos that I have already seen, just to see if I can draw out more points to do research on or reminders to meditate over. Perhaps that is the changes starting. And then the review of the notes from the first day of the convention, I then find more pointers in which I want to re evaluate within myself.
So the writing I am doing, now, more caters to those subjects. I am digging into the videos and scriptures. Sure there are some days I feel vague and empty of thought but I am grateful that the mindset changes as soon as I am curious about what Jehovah views the matters of. I can't expect too many to understand this trail of mind bubbles but let me explain that giddy and joyful are indeed in the spirit and heart.
So now I go to prep computer for my meeting and I look forward to the children commenting and the fellow siblings give me more food for thought. I realize that being disfellowshipped means that I don't get to make the comments nor speak to anyone after the meetings but I tell you one thing, Jehovah is kind. Just being able to sit inside a meeting and listen, that is true love. Never forsake the choice of being spiritually fed.
You would be surprised just how uplifting and motivating comments, songs and prayer are - even if all you are doing is listening. Just absorb the power of Jehovah through those who appear before you. That is truly a gift from Jehovah, God.
That is why even though I have opposition and hatred in my household I am grateful of the one ally Jehovah gave me, my mother. She doesn't believe but she doesn't allow hatred either. So I continue to move silently, loving and patiently with courage and strength from Jehovah. And that is what I will hold onto. Maybe, just maybe one day she will change her mind.
The objective is just keep focusing on Jehovah's qualities and promises. That is how, one day, I will be a sibling to billions again. I can hope.
The facing of opposition within my household has found me finding ways to see the positive in every hit I get. This helps me persevere in prayer. My thoughts are truly how do I make peace or the environment neutral when in company of the one who objects to my faith. Then I just know that after a whispering talk to Jehovah, that I am able to see all that is negative. Finding the reality of the situation. Not doing anything but being quiet and loving. Not fighting back is often the best answer to all that can assault you.
I learn that as a kind reminder in the convention. Granted this entire convention is about making disciples and how to help them, it is still about reminders to us all. We all still grow. Once we stop, we must lay to rest. Take yourself back to the day you started studying the bible. Learning and adjusting your life.
In my moments of misunderstandings with the opposition and the hatred spewed at me, I have to recall I, too, am so imperfect. I, too, was opposing of those who tried to teach me before. And I too was hateful. So in my way I must recall that people can change. That is how I have to go. Be a silent witness to the one who doesn't like what I believe in.
For the world around us is in companion of what is wicked. I, too, was a part of that, several times. And now, how am I different? I have experienced a wave of complications and trials that made me choose whether it was my way or Jehovah's. In truth, I did my way several times. Still I came back to what I know is real, stable and loving. Jehovah.
I sit here watching over the requirements for the meetings, videos that I have already seen, just to see if I can draw out more points to do research on or reminders to meditate over. Perhaps that is the changes starting. And then the review of the notes from the first day of the convention, I then find more pointers in which I want to re evaluate within myself.
So the writing I am doing, now, more caters to those subjects. I am digging into the videos and scriptures. Sure there are some days I feel vague and empty of thought but I am grateful that the mindset changes as soon as I am curious about what Jehovah views the matters of. I can't expect too many to understand this trail of mind bubbles but let me explain that giddy and joyful are indeed in the spirit and heart.
So now I go to prep computer for my meeting and I look forward to the children commenting and the fellow siblings give me more food for thought. I realize that being disfellowshipped means that I don't get to make the comments nor speak to anyone after the meetings but I tell you one thing, Jehovah is kind. Just being able to sit inside a meeting and listen, that is true love. Never forsake the choice of being spiritually fed.
You would be surprised just how uplifting and motivating comments, songs and prayer are - even if all you are doing is listening. Just absorb the power of Jehovah through those who appear before you. That is truly a gift from Jehovah, God.
That is why even though I have opposition and hatred in my household I am grateful of the one ally Jehovah gave me, my mother. She doesn't believe but she doesn't allow hatred either. So I continue to move silently, loving and patiently with courage and strength from Jehovah. And that is what I will hold onto. Maybe, just maybe one day she will change her mind.
The objective is just keep focusing on Jehovah's qualities and promises. That is how, one day, I will be a sibling to billions again. I can hope.
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