What a script, a play
I thought about how just a month ago I was clinging to people's words. Just how important they were. Only to realize that what was being said to me were just words. Plays. Script.
How does a person live that way? A story made up. What does the purpose bring but that of delusion inside the mind and spirit. All I can say is that I am so very sad for you. That you have to pretend to be kind to me. Even more so is that I allowed you that space inside me.
To think that I was learning to trust, to open. How much of a fool I was to let you in. Only trust Jehovah. He can never let me down. Jehovah will steer me into the correct direction. As a hope that someone stumbles you, long enough for you to realize just how hurtful your plays are.
Indeed they are plays. Drama that you want to go your way. I don't work that way. I have been there too many times. Doing my own circle that the one day when I walked away, I saw a different person.
That is how I learned of your written scripts. The circles you were in, and I tried to break you free. And in doing so, you didn't realize the truth. It is that sadness that is within me, the emptiness I feel. Just as I felt it, I recognized it and then just left.
Never expecting anything from you. That is the point of my life, I can just erase. Just a year that was well mentioning up until the memories of you. I can simply eliminate you from me. See that is the job I have. Finding a new person to help or to continue giving.
I really understood that a depth of me could never be understood. And in that it truly scared you. Sorry that you are confused by my personality and character. Although sorry of your confusion not who I am.
Yes I change but according to what Jehovah wants from me. As for you, walking away was the best decision ever. All over the discussion of a color. Just wow. Not surprised you acted like a child. Incapable of reaching me. I am not mad. Not even a little bit. Just have major sadness over your simplicity of prejudice.
To boot, you don't even know you have it. Such ignorance and self absorption. Good times for you to come, I pray.
Thank you again for letting me know I can finally erase your everything from me.
Good bye.
How does a person live that way? A story made up. What does the purpose bring but that of delusion inside the mind and spirit. All I can say is that I am so very sad for you. That you have to pretend to be kind to me. Even more so is that I allowed you that space inside me.
To think that I was learning to trust, to open. How much of a fool I was to let you in. Only trust Jehovah. He can never let me down. Jehovah will steer me into the correct direction. As a hope that someone stumbles you, long enough for you to realize just how hurtful your plays are.
Indeed they are plays. Drama that you want to go your way. I don't work that way. I have been there too many times. Doing my own circle that the one day when I walked away, I saw a different person.
That is how I learned of your written scripts. The circles you were in, and I tried to break you free. And in doing so, you didn't realize the truth. It is that sadness that is within me, the emptiness I feel. Just as I felt it, I recognized it and then just left.
Never expecting anything from you. That is the point of my life, I can just erase. Just a year that was well mentioning up until the memories of you. I can simply eliminate you from me. See that is the job I have. Finding a new person to help or to continue giving.
I really understood that a depth of me could never be understood. And in that it truly scared you. Sorry that you are confused by my personality and character. Although sorry of your confusion not who I am.
Yes I change but according to what Jehovah wants from me. As for you, walking away was the best decision ever. All over the discussion of a color. Just wow. Not surprised you acted like a child. Incapable of reaching me. I am not mad. Not even a little bit. Just have major sadness over your simplicity of prejudice.
To boot, you don't even know you have it. Such ignorance and self absorption. Good times for you to come, I pray.
Thank you again for letting me know I can finally erase your everything from me.
Good bye.
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