Clear head

I can't let too many things or people matter for when they do I start to care too much and over think too much.

I can't want to be overwhelmed or even over powered by such emotions. It doesn't harm anybody but me.

So thankful Jehovah takes care of his children. Thoughtful he is of their imperfections.

Sitting here in my brief moment of coolness I give thanks for realizing there is no way I can help everyone. They are just going to do whatever they want. I  cannot let that bother me. I cannot try to protect them.

I get that now. So here I am saying look out for me.  Jehovah hold onto me when I get these urges to help all mankind.  Just make me realize in order to help I have to be balanced within me first.

So in a way I have given up on some.  Just walking in realization I have to let people do what they want. Let Jehovah take care of it.

Not getting caught up in any but those things and people that bring me joy.

I have learned just how much I have been destroyed trying to turn people away from danger. Only to realize my words mean nothing.

I get hurt but I have to walk away from the situations. Just let them learn their own way. Only to see the protection in the end.

A hope I can maintain,  but at a distance.  Never to be caught up in anything.

The greatest harm all this parts has done is made me over think and drown. Looking back I know from experience but have learned nothing I say will change people until they fully experience it themselves.

Oh Jehovah I pray they never know the levels of harm. Yet all I can do now is pray.

Walking away from being harmed and searching for my joy. Hoping somewhere I did good for right.

Yet today in this cool wind I am setting new goals and looking out for only me. That is all I can ask for, focus on.

And that has to be the only pieces.

Looking up and giving my hugs to Jehovah. My praises for him to clear my head and push me forward.