Dreamer Moment

                 Not sure how many times the words have
to play me for a fool before I begin to hate all that is
between. Indeed the messages are loud and clear.

                Such clarity the irony settles. How else
would it be understood other than that of silly
hormones. As so many would prompt in stating, "oh
she is just having a Mary moment". Indeed, not.

               Such a overreaching moment. Ah though
what else can be named. Alas I cannot control
anything that other people choose. I just have to
hope I am being a simpleton.

               Still the offish event I am correct, what
do I say but hmm. Rather not believe in any form of
negativity yet all that is pressed, is just those.

               Rather hope that a truce is laid between
and lies died months ago. Yet depth says so much and
distance roots paramount. Why though would the
thoughts find measure in me?

              Indeed it is known. The grating of wonders.
The echoing taunts of being left behind. Though some
may find reason to put forth but why hide?

             So many trials to face and I still look for
a face, a smile. Hoping that possibilities are still
ringing. Ah what a dreamer.

           Best to quiet down and remember lost is
not lonely. Just not belonging to any particulars save
one. So yes I really hope honesty, conversation and
love is deeply felt for me.

          Even though the trust seems to be wavering
I have utmost respect for. Still why test me? Why make
me guess? Have I really been that bad of a
companion, a friend?

        I hope. I pray I am found worthy once more.
Indeed a dreamer.