Tip to be quiet

         Finding myself wanting to be punishing those who
are not my own family. Striving my hardest to just walk away.
Still the bitter words that sit on the tip of my tongue stings.

         As the police say, back away from the firearm I too must
back away from the words, the poison. There is no need for
me to be irrationally emotional because what I say does
nothing.

        All I can do is allow the tears to fall in frustration
and sit myself in another space. Holding onto the hope that
all thoughts disappear. To hope that love is still clenching
my spirit.

     Alas I can only do the steps. The uncertainty has to
lose interest inside my mind. I must!

     All the questions I have must choke me because if I ask
anything I will just sound as though having a "Mary moment"
and that is not it. So yes just grin and say all is fine when
really the fire inside me demands a scream.

    See this is why I remember we are imperfect. For our
temptations can be everywhere. Innocent at first but the
war is raging. So I sniffle and "suck it up". I keep hoping
that the screams cease and the fire is doused because
somewhere along the way an explanation of simplicity waits
for me.

    Ah yes music and fresh breaths. Then a morning routine
of exercise. Hopefully by then the tension that has built
is broken. I just pray to Jehovah for that is all I can do for
now.

   To talk to those who are doing such irritation would hurt
me more than them. So please oh Father, Jehovah help me
break down these pieces. Empty my mind of the confusion
and correct my "gut" for thinking all is right.

   Shh. Breath. Shh listen. Shh