Opening up
Awaiting here in a freezing area is all I can do. Seated waiting for good words to open into the air. Yet even though all positive things can be had I still recognize a tiny can go wrong.
Yet I won't focus on those moments. My mind goes over traditions and into the reading of Mark. Indeed the digging for more of Jehovah's lessons are there. Truly a remarkable at how far people went outside what Jehovah commanded.
It's these times I get to recall in all my readings outside of the bible just how extreme humans have gone to be above just the simplicity of Jehovah's commandments. Even more so how things really changed when Jesus came.
As I dove into understanding and meditating over what has been opened to me, I find more and more ways to love my relationship with Jehovah. Even more so is this wonder I have of Jesus. This great awe.
As I sit here the folds of the surgery come before me. Then the calm finds me. Cold is diving deep. My hands likened to ice but still I am grateful. One more day to bring goodness into my life.
So leaning into the prayer I said of goals I hope to pursue once this is over. As the day is gaining light my nerves are rattled but I am still calm. This complete peace as tears form in my eyes. It's a happiness sitting inside me.
Slowly I hear them say readiness is upon me and I smile. Knowing I just have to put my trust completely in Jehovah. And I do. I have made it through many other bits of life I am sure I can make it through this little bump.
To say putting trust in Jehovah was hard before. I was reserved. Scared almost, to completely trust in Jehovah. Yet after being where I have been I am not scared. I have opened wide. And let all the pieces of me out. Giving every bit of me- good and bad- to Jehovah.
Now I exhale. Ready.
Yes.
Here I go. To another goodness going forward.
Yet I won't focus on those moments. My mind goes over traditions and into the reading of Mark. Indeed the digging for more of Jehovah's lessons are there. Truly a remarkable at how far people went outside what Jehovah commanded.
It's these times I get to recall in all my readings outside of the bible just how extreme humans have gone to be above just the simplicity of Jehovah's commandments. Even more so how things really changed when Jesus came.
As I dove into understanding and meditating over what has been opened to me, I find more and more ways to love my relationship with Jehovah. Even more so is this wonder I have of Jesus. This great awe.
As I sit here the folds of the surgery come before me. Then the calm finds me. Cold is diving deep. My hands likened to ice but still I am grateful. One more day to bring goodness into my life.
So leaning into the prayer I said of goals I hope to pursue once this is over. As the day is gaining light my nerves are rattled but I am still calm. This complete peace as tears form in my eyes. It's a happiness sitting inside me.
Slowly I hear them say readiness is upon me and I smile. Knowing I just have to put my trust completely in Jehovah. And I do. I have made it through many other bits of life I am sure I can make it through this little bump.
To say putting trust in Jehovah was hard before. I was reserved. Scared almost, to completely trust in Jehovah. Yet after being where I have been I am not scared. I have opened wide. And let all the pieces of me out. Giving every bit of me- good and bad- to Jehovah.
Now I exhale. Ready.
Yes.
Here I go. To another goodness going forward.
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