A little conversation, heard

    It's funny how I sit here in silence
just finishing a few pieces of jewelry.
Contemplating all the things I want to
say and yet nothing, no urge to speak
pushes me to knock.

   It is the hope that I am needed.
Yet observing the day, being a Saturday,
not one person has text me nor
stopped to inquire. Yes yes it takes two to
converse. So yes I should get out there
and peruse people.

  Alas I should not complain about the
quiet. I should be happy and enjoying
every second as though no more shall
come. Perhaps I will in a few minutes.

  Ah how I go back to the "drawing
table" to be creative once more.
Dreaming up some crafty pieces to
decorate a few people here and there.

  To forget about conversations I used to
hold everyday. Ah to forget is hard but
I must to appease so many yet harm only
one. No worries to that because we all
grow.

  Somewhere, somehow we learn and live.
Growing stronger even when tears of
frustration are deep within us. So
many hopes.

  Still the weight of a sigh sits hard on my
chest but I now get up to go back to
activities to remind me to forget about
things. Silly perhaps but sometimes
the conversation is more important to
the growth of spirit than that of
forgetting.

  Indeed at current Eastern Standard
time, the emotions, the growth don't
matter. Just the objective to erase
a need of words to some.

  The bible says in Proverbs 18:1,
"Whoever isolates himself pursues
his own selfish desires; He rejects*
(or shows contempt for) all practical
wisdom." (NWT) So I want to strive
to stand away from isolating myself.

   So even in times like these, as
desperate as they are, I don't want
to go against Jehovah nor do I want
to wallow in self pity. However
in 2 Corinthians 12:10 it reads,
" ...  For when I am weak, I am
powerful. "

    Even in these days, today of all,
I feel lonely and weak but being able
to show who I am through my
poetry I am strong, powerful.  Jehovah
gives me that. Isiah 41:10 "Do not be
afraid, for I am with you."

    So even in my wantings  to just walk
away I still remain. So yes the bridges
have been worn thin and treading
on being threadbare. Still I hope
in some way conversation is opened.

    Even for one day. Just one hope.
Yes I will try and achieve.  Moving
forward even though moments hurt.

   See. View that I can change.