Grief, heartstrings and healing

 When your heart breaks and you are in the midst of grief and healing the mind begins to talk loud. You realize to some that they might think you are crazy or something other. Yet you yourself don't know if it is because of overthinking or just releasing everything you have watched unfold.

It is in these times that you understand that some people were there as bridges to help you go from one stage to another and yet like the bridge they are only stationary. They don't move but you don't burn their connection either. 

That is the journey you walk into as you grow and place self aware boundaries inside your mind and spirit. 

It is not the way you thought the events would be opened but now in a sense of urgency you have come to realize so many directions you were pulled. Yet all that was expanding was the energy of confusion, irritation and much of misunderstanding. And even though you can address the issues nothing seems to find answers or resolutions.

In the end all you can do is look in towards own mirror and connect where you are lost. Then change. Perhaps those bridges, those friendships you have will be a mobilization that do walk with you. 

Right now all you can do is focus on what you need and who you want to be. And the heartache and grief will fade. No, not to say that it ends it is just that the importance of it doesn't harm you anymore. 

In those moments of quiet you still feel deep sorrow and even cry but you pick yourself up. You make those painful steps become a barefoot wildflower freedom. Yet who is to know when the day you completely say, I am healed. Until then your mind and spirit talk and they melt into old and new only to bring about the best version of who you can be, to you.