Ever felt

Ever felt that one distant love but cannot really hold it? Ever just want to grab hold someone and hug them and dern be the consequences?

Ah days upon days the struggle is real but the heart is treacherous.  The mind screams out as the body lurches and stops. Such a waving nuisance that entertains a daily  laugh. How else do I get by on my own but through strength from Jehovah.

Have you ever felt the need to slap someone silly for their pessimistic outlook after you gave them a compliment? Have you ever restrained yourself from lashing out at their imperfections? Have you ever felt the need to just get up and walk away?

Ah the daily struggle. So many times the positive side of me holds better weights than that of the smallness of flattery.  Indeed many times I have seen the grandeur and then expect the "but" come rolling in to destroy.

So much of me laughs. I hold such hopes that my positive words ring true and yet I know at times all my efforts are in vain. Still I try just as I am supposed to. The clarity is ringing loud and clear.

Still even I find myself wondering just how damaging one negative outcast destroys.  Dare you try?

Indeed the mind is opening and the hopes are deepening. Oh Jehovah help me.

There, I hope to stay. Such a tiny hope and yet I feel the warming peace. Indeed my eyes gain but the emotions trail quietly, fading.

So the ever wonder what makes me tick or see me just smiling, perhaps now you will understand why "bless your lil Ole sweet heart" doesn't even scratch the surface.

Now hopefully my silly lines will finally make sense.