Alone in the night

      Alone I wander,  holding upon
my hands walking upon sweet grass.
Hoping my tears fade.  The midnight
air to raid my lungs.  Clinging upon the
open gasps. 

      The distance I carry my mind,  my
eyes.  Oh how the world disappears as
I cling tightly upon my waist.  Holding
tight to the hopes,  the dreams.

     Indeed the quivering finds warmth
as the soul finds the cool midnight.  The
spirit soars.  Searching for the cries.
The soft murmurs as I choke upon the
pain,  the hurt.

     Never did I want to feel.  Yes I love.
I even experience that.  How dare I
believe in an ever after when the
right isn't mine?  Oh I may be emotional.

    Yes I cry.  Yes I feel.  Yes I love.
Dare I change now?  Oh yet I stand
upon cold, dewey grass.  Shards of
crisp greenery that tickle my toes. 
Oh I forget the hurt,  I forget the pain.

    The stars,  the hopes, the prayers
draw me.  Helping me be strong. 
Crying in the dark is my rescue.  The
sniffles I hide from all but one.

    Oh the screams inside my head yet
here I stand poised. So all will "think"
all is well.