Written as a child of Jehovah's once more

 I haven't written in so long that I almost forgot that this was a voice for me. Then in my thoughts I brought up the factor that I do not find hate for Jehovah in all that I have experienced. As Jaime says in A walk to remember, "I don't need a reason to be angry with God." This is the truth. I sat here for a few days thinking over my choices and realized that of a gift Jehovah, God gives us. Free choice, free will. A conscience. 

To that I further these thoughts over the factors of my disfellowshipping. For the longest time I thought it was punishment but really it was a loving teaching to me. A lesson that helped me know that I must truly search for Jehovah, beg to become his child again.

In November I got reinstated. I want to say no parent, no congregation wants their friends and family disfellowshipped but it is the loving lesson that has to be pressed. It is the recognition of having no association, no real connection to the truth that helps a person use their free choice, free will. To choose to want to serve Jehovah. 

I almost pity the ones who never did experience a reprimand or inactivity only in the aspect of how strong your faith becomes when you are in the world, struggling to come back. The fight you endure to remain faithful. I am not saying that people should go out and be disfellowshipped or inactive to experience it nor to say that people don't feel nor experience opposition. I am just stating that I learned just how much of a privilege Jehovah's organization is - to be a part of. 

And when I say I pity people, I am just in acknowledgement that when Armageddon arrives the trials will be there. The availability of literature, websites and people are abundant but just think about those brothers and sisters around the world who are being persecuted for just having the knowledge of Jehovah and truth. Those ones who have all the accessibilities won't. How will they respond. 

All I am say is be on guard. This is not a trial. After the pandemic, what will come? Pay attention to your surroundings and draw closer to Jehovah. That is what I have learned about while being disfellowshipped. Sure the literature and websites are available but I had no association. I even cut myself off completely a few times. 

I wanted to see if I really did want to be known as Jehovah's child, his witness. I took a while but I soon realized that what Jesus did for me and Jehovah knows all parts of me. How can I NOT choose to be his child?

The answers pointed that I would be a fool, an idiot to ignore the protection, the love and family I would have if I just simply applied the obedience in my life, to Jehovah. 

So as I sat here contemplating all this I just am in awe of the profound forgiveness Jehovah has for me, his imperfect child. And as I realized that I hadn't written anything in a while, I saw that a voice within my spirit needed to speak of the profound grandeur of Jehovah. 

These times are harsh. Yes they will get harder, even more so complicated. So where is your faith? How awake are you? Will you be ready to listen to what Jehovah is telling us to do, or will you not have enough oil in your lamp?